After so long,
it's still her.

After all my efforts, I thought I did enough, to be good enough.
Still, I fell short.

It's okay if I fell short of your expectations.
I can try to work it out.
But now, it's an open comparison.
And it's the benchmark she left that I fell short of.

"I told the both of you that... and she..."

So, have you considered the reason why I didn't do anything?
It's not because I didn't think of it, because I didn't want to, or because I didn't feel like it.
I thought I'd make things difficult for you if I did anything, because you didn't feel comfortable with letting your family know. Obviously, you'd not see it now, because she managed it, so why can't I, right?

I won't be her replica,
even if it's what you're looking for.