Just half an hour ago, I was about to blow up in infuriation.
I was upset, I was angry, I was in doubt.
I didn't understand what went wrong. Was it my err? Was it because I was brought up to be a brat? Was it because I always made free time, made it a must that I do not leave requests hanging till the very last minutes, but people don't behave likewise? Was it because everyone else is forever fucking too busy- that they can never give me a definite answer, and only to tell me at the last minute, cancelled? Was it because I always took their 'I'll confirm with you later!' as an agreement? Was it because they always forget to get back to me like they promised, that I have to constantly ask for their reply like I really am desperate?
Or, is it because, I'm just too inconsiderate/unsympathetic/sensitive (yet again) ?

I don't know what odd fate I possess. I'm always stuck with people like that. People with a weird penchant of leaving every-fucking-thing to the absolute last minute, and then cancelling it at the last minute because they decided to go ahead with OTHER priorities. Oh yea, whatever.

Because I've decided. The next person that tells me 'I'll confirm with you later!' or anything close to that, fuck off okay.
If you are really keen on the meet up, it'll show more obviously.

But of course, I absolutely understand it when family/lessons get into the way. I'm definitely not referring to being ditched due to reasons like that luuuhhhhhh.

And then, half an hour later (now, that is), I'm about to cry.
But that's not because I'm sad, depressed or what not.
Joy-induced, rather. =)

I wish I could really join you baby, eat till my fill with you, shop till we drop, the 6$ prelude massage, hug you till we wake up in the morning and greet you with a smacking kiss.
Hurry come back dear! I've got so much to say to you, so much I wanna share with you, and so much I wanna pour out to you.

But it's okay! It's just another day more!
And, " I be the first you see when I return".
It's gonna be sweet dreams tonight, baby!