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Cookies and cream, Regi @2:17 AM
I haven't quite settled in yet.
I've read somewhere somehow, that Geminis are supposed to love changes, and are absolutely versatile.
And so, I'm beginning to get sceptical about all horoscopes.
I don't quite like the idea of changes. But change is the only constant in life.
I have very bad adaptability.. and I really don't know how to cope well with changes other than blaming change.
Maybe some day, somehow, when I'm really old, I'd get used to change.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:36 PM
Say I'm scared, will you please secure me?
Say I will believe, will you please keep that belief running for me together?
It's not just a one man show about whether I've done enough.. it's a two hand clap effort.
Truce, let's clap hands together.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:30 AM
Live Report
Here's reporting live from Prince George's Park, Residence 1, block 4 - The study table.
And while that is his study table, this is mine for today. THE BED!!! The wireless connection here really sucks, by the way.
I am distraction. :)Cookies and cream, Regi @11:42 PM
Today, I made you happy.
And honestly, I felt happy doing what I did.
And there's so much more I wanna do.
Said we'll try.. and I'm sure changes won't occur overnight.
But to try, means to fight it out and work it together..
So we'll try.
With all my might, I'll give this a good try.. and please do the same.
:)
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:16 AM
Distance was never a problem to me, somehow.
I've never regarded it as an issue, when it came to you.
And today, it still doesn't.
I don't know what I'm doing now,
all I want, is to be there.
Spent the entire night before turning in doing the kit,
with constant questioning by myself,
are you sure you want to do this ?
But at the end of it,
I realised, I'm happy doing it. And I'll keep doing it, until the day a miracle happens, or when I truly moved on.
So there.
And, I enjoyed our talk last night.
Seems like nothing really changed.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:15 PM
The toughest part, is to know that love is still there. But it can't go pass the barrier.
Today, it hurt me so bad when you told me you're going to clean up your new room alone. Every part of me wanted to abandon work, and go over to help you. No matter the distance.
Yet I held back. I am no one to be doing all that anymore.
Before this episode, we had plans to help you settle in together.. and I had so much thought to just be there for you. Yet now, all's lost.
Why won't dreams come true ?
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:59 PM
I wish I could live in that dream, for real.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:18 PM
Talking to Steven at work has always been a joy.
He might be cheeky and indecent mostly, but all in the name of lightening the atmosphere.
He's very knowledgeable and wise.
Today, work started to get easier when he came down to accompany me, and talked to me for about 3 hours.
He told me the way of life, told me the approach to many aspects of life, and taught me many things.
One important thing I'll always remember, and that he's always emphasising,
is that, "You can choose to lie to everyone. You can choose to lie to me. But you can't lie to yourself, and you know that."
He taught me shares speculations, he taught me how to answer interview questions, he taught me how to bring out the confidence, he taught me how to answer my assignment question, he taught me how to appreciate and live life to the fullest, and he taught me how to grab opportunities.
One day, Steven and his salesman were at the hawker having lunch. Both of them ordered prawn mee. His salesman only concentrated on finishing his lunch, and that his sole purpose in the hawker centre that day, was just to have lunch.
Steven had a different purpose. He went there, enjoyed his lunch, but was surveying the surroundings. He started talking to the woman sharing a table with them, discussing about their coffee, and their day. By the end of the conversation, that woman gave him her namecard. She was the GM of a listed logistics company. And with that, he closed a deal.
WHAAAAAAAAAAA
Impressive leh.
And the many times I witnessed him do sales talk, I was never left unimpressed. In fact, I'm always dumbfounded and awestruck. But after every sales talk, he always tells me, that he was just bullshitting the customer, and every ounce of information apart from the price and flavour of the package, was bogus.
So the key here, is to present a confident front, and not to reveal a slight bit of the lack of knowledge to your customers, and you've already won half the race.
I still have a long way to go...
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:03 PM
I can't understand how you get pass.
I started off this whole 'without you' episode by telling myself, I'll be okay, I must not cry, I must move on.
But it's so difficult because I keep getting reminded.
Over and over again, the heartache lingers.
How did I get my heart so torn and battered?
Why did we create so much memories?
To deal with life at ease, I have to get over you.
But I don't want to forget. I don't want to have to end up forcing myself to forget.
To get on, I remind myself of the things you did to disappoint and hurt me. I keep telling myself that you weren't real, that all along, everything was fake.
But the memories, the memories of the better times keep returning to haunt me.
I wake up each day to a heartstabbing pain, because I no longer have you with me.
I shouldn't have given you my all.
I shouldn't have loved you truly.
I shouldn't have depended on you, believing that we'll make the mark together.
And no matter how hard I tell myself to hate, I can't.
And sadly, I'm still waiting. Waiting for a miracle.
If I sought solace with him, would it really help me forget?
What do I do, baby.
To bring you back again.
To the days where love was once so true.
To make you happy again, and to be there for you.
Everything, everywhere, has a ghost of you and me.
And I keep hoping and praying, that it's really us I see.
When will you ever come home?
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:27 PM
Sometimes, I fall so weak.
Sometimes, I'm okay, and I believe I can pull through.
I told you, to move on, I needed someone's help.
I tried to start, and tried to open up.
But everytime I think of you, I cover up again.
I feel scared to start all over again.
Today, I was walking alone to take the bus, and just like a normal twitch of the senses, I took out my phone and wanted to call you, and start talking and yaking.
Then I realised what I was doing, and kept back the phone.
On board the bus, a couple sat right in front of me, and they were doing every single thing we did back in the good old days. They looked just like us back then... so much in love.
Then I couldn't help but start bawling again after reading your text.. how much we're really friends now. How your last message, the one I didn't send a reply to, sounded so much like the old fabby boo I always knew. Chirpy and happy. It pained because now, this chirpy boy doesn't belong to me anymore.
*Edit
I just called you.. because I felt like listening to your voice.
You sounded so fine, as you narrated your day to me.
And as I listened how you're getting along.. without me.. I was faced with mixed emotions.
Some part of me was happy for you that you're doing well, focusing on your studies. Yet the other part of me is torn because I'm out of your life.
I tried to hold back the emotions, but Pluto was so cute.
I came online, and I saw 'you're special - boo'. And this, is the first time your nick is dedicated to me, for something this pleasant. And this first time, is when we're no longer together.
I thought of Plan Z today, and how our plan didn't fall through.
But I hope one day, we'll still make it to the Z together.
I'm still trying to move out of all these pain, and truly focus on life.
I know you'll always be there for me.. like how I'll always be there for you.
So don't forget to keep your word.
"No matter what I do, I always forget to forget you."
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:50 PM
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:47 AM
Dreams, dreams, of when we had just started things.
Dreams, of me and you.
And it seems, it seems, that I can't shake those memories.
I wonder if you feel the same way too?
The littlest things that take me there
I know it's sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair,
the things are reminding me of you.
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend,
even if only for one weekend.
So c'mon, tell me, is this the end?
-
Last night, jan and paul came to look for me to see if I was doing okay.
And I know, many friends sent smses to check if I'm okay, but I didn't reply to them.
I just want you all to know, I'll be okay.
And I am really glad to have you all to care for me, and worry for me.
But don't worry, I'll get on with life.
Last night, it took so long before I finally fell asleep.
And when I did, I dreamt of you. I dreamt of just your face, and nothing else.
Then, I woke up.
I ended the night not feeling so sore, but relieved, rather. That we'll always remain as special friends.
Yet, when the dream broke through, I realised that we're no longer together, and that now, I'll refer you as my friend, my ex boyfriend. It tore me apart.
But I didn't cry.
I told you, I won't cry again. Because crying will only make me want you back more. And crying is a painful process.
This morning, I woke up, feeling the heart stabbing pain again, and still, I didn't cry.
But I still can't make it to work today.
I realised, I miss the mornings where I woke up, finding an early morning message from you.
And the nights where I would fall asleep to your voice.
They all seem so faraway now.
I must not lose to the tears. I must not lose to the tears. I must not lose to the tears.
But, I lost.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:30 AM
30 November 2004 - 17 August 2007.
2 years, 8 months, 17 days.
Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.
You have been the one, you have been the one for me.
Today, we finally ended it.
Much as it pained to let you go, I guess, that's the only thing to do.
I won't think about the negatives, I won't think about them.
I will remember the better memories, and keep the better you forever in me.
I'm glad we'll be friends, best friends in fact. I'm glad that we'll still hang out, talk, and carry on this special contact.
Remember your promise, and I'll remember mine.
I'll miss you, but it'll be for the better.
You won't be leaving my wall frame, and RPJ, FPJ, Regi Little, Garfat, all of them, will stay. I'll keep your watch on my wrist. You'll still be living in my heart, and I really hope, we'll end up the best of friends.
And when the day comes ( you know which day..), if it ever does, don't be afraid to come to me.
You know I'll always be there.
There're no goodbyes anymore, because we'll be friends, bestfriends.
But goodbye to Us, goodbye to the plans we had for our future.
And with this, I finally understand what bittersweet is.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:42 AM
In the blink of an eye,
we're history.
I'm hurt, and I'm still hurting.
Till now, I cannot come to terms how did all that happen.
How did I let you do all that.
How did I let us come to this point.
Regrets, I have a plenty.
Regret finding out, regret knowing so much, regret not having done better, and maybe, I regret loving you ever so much.
You removed the photos fast, and so quickly, the only one left become one of those better times.
I'll miss you and your sniggers, you and your silly talk, you and your whines, you and your cheekiness, and most importantly, the times which held such better days, where you loved me with all you had, and with all you could.
I'll miss the mornings where I woke up to your texts or calls, and miss the times where you woke me up, and I could still whine to you. I'll miss the days where I could call you anytime I want and need, and shout my love across the phone. I'll miss the days where we would watch as life passed us by, and we were still firm together. I'll miss the days where we spent hours shopping aimlessly, as you scouted for Braun Buffel, Levis, and shoes. I'll miss the days where we cooked for each other, and watched movies together. I'll miss the days where we'd still wear our rings together, and hold our hands tightly together. I'll miss the nights where I went to sleep hearing your voice, bickering with Pluto, and hearing you tell me you'll hug me to sleep, no matter what.
And all that I miss, were just all yesterday.
Today, you're not mine anymore.
I'll have to stand up alone, stand straight and tall. And I've to move on, without you this time round. I cannot cry, because that'll make me miss you even harder.
But I do miss you.
Dear baby boo,
please be happy.
With love,
Regi Boo.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:41 AM
After so long,
it's still her.
After all my efforts, I thought I did enough, to be good enough.
Still, I fell short.
It's okay if I fell short of your expectations.
I can try to work it out.
But now, it's an open comparison.
And it's the benchmark she left that I fell short of.
"I told the both of you that... and she..."
So, have you considered the reason why I didn't do anything?
It's not because I didn't think of it, because I didn't want to, or because I didn't feel like it.
I thought I'd make things difficult for you if I did anything, because you didn't feel comfortable with letting your family know. Obviously, you'd not see it now, because she managed it, so why can't I, right?
I won't be her replica,
even if it's what you're looking for.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:16 AM
Need to cope with changes from now.
Need to occupy myself.
Keep myself busy. Leave no time for myself to feel alone.
Need to be prepared for sudden attacks.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:16 PM
the voice.
"6billion people in this world, and sometimes, you only need one. "
One Tree Hill
-
You could live life the way it's supposed to be, to stick to conventions and live it the stable way.
Or, you could live it the way you want it to be, and live a life of passion.
Feel the adrenaline rush through your blood, and experience the thrill.
Passion over stability, insanity versus sanity.
How would you rule?
-
ER project's crazy. So much readings to do, and yet I've no idea how to go about writing my piece.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:10 AM
Isn't he cute?:)
And we even duet together. <3
And baby's first time at Wala's, we both had Singapore Sling and Screwdriver. :)Was a wonderful experience, and he loved it. :)
Here's who I met today !!!!!!!! (and will be meeting more in time to come to study! (: )
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:37 AM
Alright day, made better because I finally met up with Jiale and Kate! :)
Had dinner together, gossiped, and took pictures, which I'll upload later... after doing the damned mab.
Slowing down on all fun... project deadlines, tests, homework. So much to catch up on... thank God I got Jiale. :D She'll be my weekly study date along with Katey!!
And my poor darling's so stressed out by school when it's only day 2 of classes.. poor thing.
I GIVE YOU MORAL SUPPORT OKAY HUNNY!! :)
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:47 AM
Weeee pictures from the picnic/tanning on Sunday at Siloso! :)
Group picture, short of Aaron and Daphne.. 
The girls!
The doggies.
This is Pebbles!
And this is Nikki!
Jan and Nat with Rowena.
Daphne!!
Jan's favourite picture! We found this cute lil thing somewhere and we decided to take pictures with it. :)
Jan's favourite picture! We found this cute lil thing somewhere and we decided to take pictures with it. :)
Nikki's a greedy dog. Look at him stare at the chip.
I can run faster than Nikki!!!! :D
Pebbles looks... tortured.. hahaha.
I should have tied my hair up..... in all the attempts, my hair was covering my face. hahaha. And Rowena insisted that Jan didn't jump.. SHE DID!! Her legs were just too long. LOL.
I cannot tell you enough, how glad I am to find friends like these two.. :)
And look what I found, an overdue photo with Jem!
I can run faster than Nikki!!!! :D
Pebbles looks... tortured.. hahaha.
I should have tied my hair up..... in all the attempts, my hair was covering my face. hahaha. And Rowena insisted that Jan didn't jump.. SHE DID!! Her legs were just too long. LOL. I cannot tell you enough, how glad I am to find friends like these two.. :)And look what I found, an overdue photo with Jem!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:19 AM
I'm losing it.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:38 PM
The Zahir
I was talking to a friend yesterday (you know who you are :) ), and she asked me, how did I manage to keep a relationship this long...
And I took a walk down memory lane..
Before we were together... 26 November 2004. Impressive how time flies isn't it?
And our very first picture together after officially being each other's. Our second attempt to catch the sunrise, at East Coast.
Our first Christmas together as a couple!
And the Snow City trip just before you boat off to Tekong, and not see me for 2 weeks.. the horrible 2 weeks.
And so, I got you stacks and stacks of letters to open each day in camp, which you didn't bring in. :(
And the first picture with my mr botak!
Remember the weekends where I'd sulk because we had so little time together? And you got me a little surprise... just a barsoap, but it was such a sweet surprise..
And remember the time my slipper broke halfway through our excursion around NUS? Look at how smart you were to fix them for me!
And that whole week you had after BMT was for me. :) The first time you came over to my house, you made me pasta. Bacon pasta. :)
The first time we drank at a club together! REMEMBER REMEMBER?!?! I didn't even like it then.. and you had to finish it for me. :)
The very treasured weekends I had with you...
And our first clubbing experience! At the club that's gone now.. haha.
The family started with just FPJ and Garfat!
Ooh and this sweet mms you sent me, which left me grinning eye to eye for days.
We even conquered the Big Walk together! And do you remember piggy-backing me through so much of the journey? And even carrying my bag for me throughout it all...
The massage you'd always give my fingers everytime I fall asleep on you.. or when I had a rough day.
Your favourite! And was up on your wallpaper for so long... Did you know baby, that made me really happy?
How we'd sketch our little happy tree together.. with all the others. :)
Our first puzzle together!
And our second Christmas together... remember what we did at the corridor? ;)
So we grew together... and even became good cooks together. :)
You'll always impress me musically, really.
We even caught musicals together.
Cabaret first, then it was Phantom of the Opera. 
We went pass your 19th...
We went pass your 19th...Then your 20th..
We even travelled together...
Your arms've always somehow been where I feel truly safe at. 
You'd always take pictures with me, no matter how unwilling you are, you'd give in to my requests.
When we finally got our very own rings...
I like the stupid poses you'd do when my camera starts. :) And this day, you came over after work by public transport, just to get me two pieces of bread because I always get hungry at night while studying.
How you'd still make it a point to see me when you're sick... and end up sleeping in my bed.
Always there to solve my technical problems...
Watch me study..
Take silly pictures with me...
Webcamming together had always been so cute...
I like how you look and sound when you're sleepy and losing concentration...
And, 3 of my birthdays together, as a couple. 
Adapted from The Zahir by Paulo Coelho
When we finally got our very own rings...I like the stupid poses you'd do when my camera starts. :) And this day, you came over after work by public transport, just to get me two pieces of bread because I always get hungry at night while studying.
How you'd still make it a point to see me when you're sick... and end up sleeping in my bed.
Always there to solve my technical problems...
Watch me study..
Take silly pictures with me...
Webcamming together had always been so cute... You'd even keep me company all the way till my friends arrive and send me off to party the night away.
I like how you look and sound when you're sleepy and losing concentration...
And, 3 of my birthdays together, as a couple.
My 18th.. 
19th..
20th.
You've made them all special.
19th..
20th.
You've made them all special.2 years, 8 months. What a feat.
I don't know what to say... it's been such a wonderful experience..
You've always been so gracious, and caring.
And there's nothing much I can ask for (well, maybe apart from STOP ASKING ME TO LIKE POOH!!!!! :P)
You know you're special sweetie.
Sealed with millions of kisses,
Your baby boo.
Adapted from The Zahir by Paulo Coelho
"...the story by Jorge Luis Borges, about something which, once touched or seen, can never be forgotten, and which gradually so fills our thoughts that we are driven to madness. My Zahir is not a romantic metaphor - a blind man, a compass, or a coin.
It has a name, and ..."
his name is Fabius.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:59 AM
You know, I actually have a secret remedy everytime I'm feeling lousy, angry or frustrated. I just look at this picture, and I end up smiling. Just like magic. No kidding.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:23 AM
"What the eye does not see, the heart does not grieve over."
- The Zahir, Paulo Coelho.
The representative statement of an escapist.
Caught Rush Hour 3 with babbyyyyy today in the morning! hoho. Wasn't really planned, but since his car was undergoing operation and we had to wait...
The movie was rather good I thought. A lot of humour, and pun. Then we walked around Novena, and wasted an hour away in Spinelli's, where we both fell asleep. I like lazy afternoons like these with baby, as we watch the world go by, and we're still seated together. I like how it feels.
And I'm very thankful to find sincere friendship in Jan and Nat.. who are the friends that would go the mile for me, like missing lessons etc. I'm sure of it. haha. And we were talking over dinner, over our past education, experiences.. and we're all so different. It's amazing how we're such good friends. :) I like that feeling too.
Met Shirley in school today too. Caught up with her before class, and yes, shirley's still wearing black. haha! But it was nice to catch up, knowing that we still have stuff to talk about. :)
Today is a good day. Shall stay this way.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:18 AM
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:46 PM
Yesterday, we went dbl o for the ladies privelleges. :)
Took full advantage of our privellege (cheapo, I know!), then moved on over to Zouk with bh and his friends. Turns out, we couldn't enter Zouk through the priority due to unforseen circumstances.. but some stranger took us girls in in the end. And poor bh and friends couldn't enter, they went mos.
So we went in, met all the familiar faces, had fun in the midst of the stampede, then ended the night off pretty badly at Spize.
We didn't even take much pictures yesterday...gahh.
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:17 PM
why is it my problem?
To be expected to please both ends..
To be expected to be at both ends of the rope.
To hang on one end, and not know what to do.
I am tired.
Please give me a break.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:39 PM
Dear booboo,
Thank you for being such an understanding boy, and not stop me from having all the fun that I want. Thank you for being so trusting and cool about it.
It's amazing. :)
Love,
baby boo.
-
Work today was a fresh experience altogether, because of the whole new cafe concept. So now, I'm not just sales girl, I'm waitress too! I serve mocha, latte, cappuchino, housewine, etc.
but it's fun! At least work isn't that boring.. :)
And it's party time tomorrow again! :)
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:23 AM
Been listening to Daughtry repeatedly since last night, and I sure am not getting sick of it yet. heh.Finally, a full day to myself ! Pity it's such a warm day, else it'd be a better day.
I went to sleep very happily last night.. and I had a weird dream about kittens. But they were so cute. haha. So anyway, I'm in a good mood today. At least right up till now, nothing's spoiling the day. :D
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:19 PM
Sanity versus insanity.
1 , 2 buckle my shoe.
3, 4 shut the door.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:54 AM
There're a lot more with a lot more other people but I'm lazy to collage and upload, so forget it! haha. good night world
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:28 PM
Time flies
Yesterday was great!
First, I had sumptuous dinner with baby. Dinner was greeeaaaaat! And he was great too. We took a walk around Clarke Quay after dinner, watched the world pass us by, and he kept me company till my friends came. How sweet. . .
Then it was MOS with jan, nat, reymond, wesley, jasper, and 2 other guys whose names I kind of forgot. haha. MOS was pretty fun actually. We smuggled in a whole bottle of Smirnoff (in my shirt) into the club, made new friends, played the usual games, danced, took hell a lot of pictures, and got into quite some drama at the end of it all.
So even though at the end of the party, there was quite some drama going on, and I ended up in a cab on my own, sleeping only at 8am in the morning, I'd say, I had fun. :)
Pictures up later after I get them from Jan! :)
And today, it was Wala wala again! The live band there was orgasmic, I swear.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:00 AM
Lost
1030PM.
On the drive home, I muted the player. I wound down the windows.
And as I felt the cool breeze sweep past my cheeks, I realised, I'm tired.
I need a break, and I need some time alone.
To pause, and take a breather. To review what's around me, to look at what's around me, and what everything has become, before everything catches up with me, and I lose control, again.
If I lay here,
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and,
just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here,
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and,
just forget the world?
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:25 PM
The word is, Today.
We finally had class together again! Oooh, and all in spectacles, how cute. haha.
And we were trying to create an illusionary effect.... Guess it guess it! haha.
And after school was lunch and kboxing with Li and Ru!
(We were trying to mimick Jolin's singing style. hohoho)
Now, say hello to, Selina, Hebe, Ella. We are SHE! LOL.Whatever.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:11 PM
Don't judge, just love.
I always remind myself that every individual is different, and we think differently. It's not necessary to enforce my ideologies, mindsets and/or likes and dislikes on someone else. And as far as I can, I try to understand that we all have our differences. And I won't force anyone to adopt the same thinking as I do.
I hate it when people try to fix their views on me, and expect me to follow it. Don't we all have our own lives? It's one thing for you not to like something, and another for you to think that people should not like it too.
We'll all have our dislikes about some stuff, and not agree to certain stuff. But we should respect the decisions of the decision makers, since afterall, it's really none of our business.
Ok, I just had to get that out of my head, especially after talking to fab about you-know-who-that-I-feel-tired-for. Haha. Good night!
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:27 AM
Alley Bar
Had dinner with them two girls today after class, and went Alley Bar with them and some friends for a drink. Had a lot of fun camwhoring.. hoho. We took so many pictures, but I'm rather lazy to upload them and besides, we took quite a lot of 'stupid' pictures. (you girls know what I mean! heh)
It's a really nice feeling to chill out with friends, talk about anything and everything, do fun stuff together. I'd love to share it with you, boo.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:15 AM
Alarm call
Dear Regina,
please remember to:
1. Sort/organise your wardrobe and get rid of clothes you don't want.
2. Get your ass down on publishing Le Littles
3. Get your ass down to being studious
4. Sleep early
5. Lose weight
6. make Friday's party your last clubbing for this sem (and I know your fabby will never believe this)
Signed,
Your alter ego.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:30 AM
Spin a lifetime of dreams
I'm quite sick of reading the hmt text on industrial revolution.
James Watt... Adam Smith.. whatever.
I don't even think I can reproduce all their names and achievements, and the good that they've done which caused me to be studying at this hour.
Thank God it's just a mock test. But mock test every lesson, on every chapter sounds rather insane to me. Well, at least it's a mock test by name. Even though we're allowed to flip the text, discuss the answers... oh well. Mock test.
Surprisingly, the shot of espresso at work today isn't really helping me much. Seems like books are afterall, the best sedatives. On the other hand, work today was rather therepeutic. I had lots of customers. Or should I say, company. Well, many of them walked in, drank my wine and coffee, and I had quite a number of them to entertain me and help me pass time. But that aside, I finally sold my first bottle of V5 today! :) Sold 3 bottles of wine today, and all my customers/company were really nice people and time passed rather quickly this time round.
Baby and I met up later. Rushed to NUS for his matriculation, where I met many familiar faces. Well, he met more of course. Not forgetting that cute little MJ chick. pfft.
And we had the cheapest Subway of our lives! :) And today, I visited the oh-so-cheap beauty product store in Chinatown. And right now, I'm contemplating if I should get the YSL fragrance.. Much much much cheaper than normal retail price. Sounds tempting.
Oh, and I met Ru and Li for lunch yesterday! We went to our all time favourite fish bee hoon store opposite Zhonghua. hurhurhur. Where I spent most of my fun-days. Speaking of which, we're on bark a food project! We're projecting to visit good food stalls, try and document them, then blog them down. hoho. Sounds deliciously fun. :D Food can never go wrong. Never.
Oh, not unless you consider growing fat wrong.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:11 AM
"I'd rather have one breath of her hair, one kiss from her lips, one touch of her hands, than to live an eternity without it."
-Nicolas Cage, City of Angels
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:51 AM
City of Angels
"Why do people cry?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, what happens physically?"
"Well, mmm. Tearducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye, and when you have emotion, they overreact and create tears."
"Why? Why do they overreact?"
"I don't know..."
"Maybe.. Maybe emotions become so intense your body just can't take it. Your mind and feelings becomes so powerful, your body weeps."
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:21 PM
Lazy Sunday.
Didn't really want to wake up early today, but my relatives were creating such unbearable noise early in the morning, I had to wake up.
Now, don't ask me why the lot of them were at my place. I've no idea too.
The weather's too good to not sleep... But oh well. If I sleep now, I'll not be able to sleep tonight again, and compromise work tomorrow. Tsk.
And the stupid marks from playing slapping scissors paper stone are still on my hands. They look gross.
I haven't received any message from boo today. :(
Oh. OTH season 3's ready to be watched, yay!
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:00 PM
Ahhhh long night.
First up, my fabby boo went KL (again). :(
So this weekend, I don't have my dearest boyfriend by my side, and it's not good.
And worse, he made me cry at around 3 plus this afternoon.
He scheduled an email to be sent to be at 3plus today (around the time he'll reach KL), and it reached me when I was watching OTH.
IT WAS AN ECARD!!
THAT SWEETIE SENT ME AN ECARD!!
It was so sweet, it made me cry.
And yes darling, I miss you already too. :)
So tonight, I went for this alcohol party by the poolside at Dunearn Gardens.
It was pretty fun, even though I had a lot to drink. ( What do you think, an alcohol party!)
Had fun meeting new people, playing games, fulfilling and watching stupid forfeits, stealing lychees, and freezing in the function room.
Now, I'm hungry. My dinner was CHIPS!
And if baby's home right now, he'll definitely encourage me to make myself cup noodles. See, I have a mean baby, always plotting to get me fat. :D
I will suffer from a hangover tomorrow. I'm sure of it.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:40 AM
Depressed.
Need a solution.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:59 AM
I think I don't have to keep emphasising why I think my mother's weird.
But I'll just say it anyway.
She screamed at my dad to put my P plate back up even after my probation period is over.
Ok, I know I won't get fined for driving with the P plate (we can conviently say someone else in the family's a new driver), and I know there'll be an excuse for me if I make any mistakes (SEE! NEW DRIVER! STILL LEARNING!), but!! OLD BIRDS LIKE TO PICK AT PROBATIONAL DRIVERS!!
I hope some old bird decides to kiss my dad's car's ass because he just wants to find fault with me. That'll shut my mum up. hurhurhur.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:32 AM
I'll always remember that magic moment
Could I Have This Dance - Anne Murray
I'll always remember the song they were playin'
The first time we danced and I knew
As we swayed to the music and held to each other
I fell in love with you
CHORUS:
Could I have this dance for the rest of my life
Would you be my partner every night
When we're together it feels so right
Could I have this dance for the rest of my life
I'll always remember that magic moment
When I held you close to me
As we moved together, I knew forever
You're all I'll ever need.
-
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:20 AM
Shut the door
I should kick the stupid habit of self-deceit.
I should forget about convincing myself that as long as I stay true, people will too.
Fooled once, fooled twice, and I've already lost count how many times I've been fooled.
Yet I kept believing, kept trying.
Bloody hell, now you can kiss my ass and go away.
Because I'm shutting the door, RIGHT AT YOUR FACE.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:27 PM
OKEEE.
So I just found out about the mock test for hmt tomorrow. awesome!
So there goes my early bedtime.
:(
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:52 PM
You tell me, how to live in this place?
How to live here? How to live pass a mother that has to find fault before she leaves for Genting, and the first thing she shows you when she gets home, is her full of grudges horribly black face? And then the next thing she does is to accuse you for plotting to kill her because she fell in the toilet and you were the last to shower?
Goodness fucking gracious.
I seriously don't know how to.
Teach me.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:36 AM
Today is an important day.
I conversed with two very important friends, Ys and Kate.
Ys said he'll be making me dinner sometime soon, and we'll hang out like old times and watch dvds. :D
Kate says she'll share all her corn, eat my peas and carrots for me! And and and, no more half boiled eggs, all hard boiled!
WHIPEEEEEE~
And for dinner, baby bought us PepperLunch, and we went to our favourite place too. The weather tonight's so perfect. And it makes Singapore look exceptionally calm and pretty in a way... If only everynight's like that. How perfect that'd be.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:14 AM
Up you go
We can really, never be too happy with anything in life.
When we're happy, there's always something else to put us down again.
Just awhile ago, I was actually in a rather good mood, and even bought Ben n Jerry's Chunky Monkey. I guess, happiness never really stays for good.
Just like how even the sweetest smelling scent will never linger around for good.
Cookies and cream, Regi @6:31 PM
My Taka Visa's finally here! Yayyyy.
Yesterday, I was having lunch with my family in AMK.
So if you look around most tables, all kids are happily chomping their food away with their happy families. And you'd notice that they're prettily dressed, look clean and neat, and like they've the utmost comfort in life.
Then a bunch a small kids start trottling into the coffeeshop. Most of them, in tattered and torn clothing, look unkempt and tired. Each of them lugged a stack of foreign newspapers, and went around begging for people to buy it.
At that instant, I felt really sad for them. Who made them do it? Why shouldn't they be enjoying their childhood carefree, and happy, without having to work?
And we all thought Singapore was a good place to live in..
Apparently, no where really is Utopia. :(
On the flip side, I had a really good rest. I haven't slept so much in days. I just hope I manage to sleep tonight, else I'd have difficulty waking up for work tomorrow.
Yes! I'm resuming duty at Order Express! (:
But I'm a little worried tho, I'm a little rusty with the facts of coffee and wine. I haven't been talking about them in 3 weeks. I hope nothing goes wrong...
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:29 PM
There are times where I really don't understand how does my mother's mind work.
I mean, it can be an all cool, relaxing and fun day.
And with just a simple snap, she can just ruin the day, end it with a bad stop.
All because she likes it like that.
I was having a good day.
The weather's good, my mood is fine, I had enough sleep.
And I even planned to go out.
So she has to ruin my mood.
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Cookies and cream, Regi @7:56 PM
where it cut the deepest
Benefit of the doubt.
How many times have you awarded that? And, how many times have people awarded you that?
It seems like one of the toughest things in this world, apart from forgiveness.
At least I hardly ever meant it when I say it.
But at least it's a try.
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Tonight, I'm not turning in early. And it's already 3.44am.
I just finished 2 episodes of OTH2, and these are by far, the most emotionally engaging episodes that got me thinking about a lot of stuff.
I guess, in life, there're just too many things we care and want to care about.
And we can never care enough..
But sometimes when we care too much, we end up caring things/people that don't really care.
And see our care as an obligation.
I really don't want to care about you, I just have to let that habit pass with time.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:41 AM
Today's a long day, but it wheezed by real quick.
Die Hard 4.0 is awesome, and Timothy Olyphant, hot factor 101 stars. (:
Finance class today was okay despite ending at 10pm. I quite like the lecturer..
And it's really time to start studying.. there're people that have already started on the assignments.. and group project. zzzzoooommmmmgggggg. Market spoilers. tsk
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:34 AM
Sometimes, like today, I want to achieve the triumphant sense of achievement that I accomplished something by waking up early.
So I did, and I woke up prematuredly (as compared to other days for the past few weeks) and did what I intended to do.
All was going well, until the jog.
Apparently, my food hadn't digested like I thought it had, after reading the papers for one hour after breakfast. So my jog was highly uncomfortable and I almost puked.
And as such, I only managed 15minutes of run today.
Gahhhhhhh!
But anyway, I turned in early last night. And it felt good once again, to revert my biological clock back to normal. I was just thinking, it actually feels rather good to have a plain life. To just revolve my life around school, work, enrichment, health (which will lead to beauty), family, Fabius, and friends (some friends).
In fact, life'd be much more peaceful. Less friction, less conflicts. And a more applaudable benefit, less money spent! hohoho. Ahh, that's all good. I should stick to this for this semester.
And now, headin' on out to NUS with baby, and then Die Hard 4 with friends. And school.
It's no longer TGIF, it's SIF from today.
Sian, It's Friday! =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:37 PM
This morning, I woke up considering taking sleeping pills every night, so that my sleeping cycle can be reverted back to normal. And all my nocturnal hours would disappear.
But I weighed the cons... and I have no wish to spend that unnecessary moolah.. so.. too bad.
MAB this sem doesn't seem to suck as much anymore. Somehow the lecturer isn't as horrible as the previous term, so let's just hope it's not just the 1st lecture.
So anyway.. baby came to school to look for me today after his test in school, we lunched nearby and went home to watch Closer. And even though the entire film was full of dialouge and mind games, Jude Law was ohmygosh so handsomeeeeeeeee!!! *gushes like crazy*
But that's weird, he wasn't as attractive when I last 'saw' him on a poster in town. hurhurhur.
Ok that aside.
I'm so tired today, imma have to retire for the night after this entry. And the time now, 10:22pm. I haven't slept this early in ages... and I took a one hour nap earlier before tuition. Oh, speaking of tuition, I made my kid cry today. And he's a boy. =x
His parents insisted that I do not go soft on him, and so his internet usage would be decided by me. Since he didn't do his work... I had to punish him, right? But I thought I was nice... I only took off half an hour away from his weekly usage.. and he got so upset by it, he teared.
I was rather tempted to let him have his way... until his mum stared hard at me and eyed for me not to.. Sorry SY!
Bed beckons!
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:18 PM
Chasing cars
Have you ever really sat down and felt time whiz past? If you haven't, maybe it's high time you take a break from the hustle bustle and start feeling.
Digressing a little, I was just watching as the people passed me by this evening. I looked at all their faces, I watched how they walked and how they carried themselves, I watched how they react to different circumstances.
And I recalled what Whitey said in One Tree Hill2. Being the old man that he is, he said if he were to be young again, he'd do everything. He'd not give a care to how people looked at how unglam he was, not give a care to how he looked like doing things, not give a care to his pride and ego. Because when you're as old as he is, you'll be lying in bed one day, wishing you had done better.
The people I saw today, none of them bothered to run for buses. The girls were concerned about how their hair would mess up in the wind if they ran, while the guys were concerned about how roudy they'd look by rushing for public transport.
But of course, those are my assumptions. However yet, have you ever been in a situation where you were afraid of how people'd judge you, and develop negative ideas about you, just by doing something 'out of the ordinary' ?
And so I come to my point again, how do we ever escape judgements? It's so tiring to live up to what other people expect of us, don't you think? People always chant, "I don't give a damn how others think of me. I do what I want. ". Sure, I don't deny that there're people we are that impressive. But out of the ten that claim that, I'm pretty damn sure less than half of them practice what they preach.
'nuff of digression.
I was reading Jan's earlier, and she mentioned about her grandfather. And it brought me to start thinking about my grandma (the one who left us 11years ago), and my great grandma.
The memories of them being around are still pretty clear in my mind.. Especially that of my grandma. Even though she's left for 11 years.. but it seemed so much like yesterday that she was still sitting next to me forcing lunch into me while I played on the piano. It felt so clear, every single detail. Even of how she used to cough and snigger.
That's when it dawned on me suddenly that she's already gone. And for so long. All of a sudden, I'm already 20, and she probably wouldn't recognise me well if I were to see her again now.
One thing that'll always remain constant in this world is change. There's no stop to it.. and sometimes, I do direct the cause of my regrets to change. Change isn't necessarily a bad thing.. just that.. more often than not, it brings people you treasure away.
Far, far away.
And it gets rather sad to think of it..
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:59 PM
hohoho.
Hello guys, I cannot emphasise enough how broken english can really kill people.
So for further information, do visit http://stevenlim.net and watch his youtube rebuke xiaxue's video.
I got so frustrated I didn't even watch half the video.
For once in a lifetime, I'm actually agreeing with Xiaxue!
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:31 PM
School finally officially started, and I finally met Retard after so long. (=
And thank you Retard for the HK pluto and organiser!!
***
How not to be judgemental? Everyone wants to live, everyone wants to be free. But there's always a judgemental side of everyone of us. And many a times, we are consumed by it. We want to live free from all judgements and do anything we like. But we are judgemental ourselves. How should we expect others not to be?
Question is, how not to be judgemental?
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:26 PM
Insomnia is my bestfriend.
Good morning, world.
I haven't had a wink at all, and in 15 minutes, baby will be awake.
I have a very strong gut that he'll holler at me, trying to interrogate the real reason as to what kept me up the entire night.
Truth is, insomnia kept me up.
I was tired, yes. But not sleepy.
Somehow, I just didn't fall asleep even after rolling about in bed for an hour odd.
So I gave up, and started designing a blog skin (without Frontpage. it's all manual!). Next thing I know, it's already 6am, and Stelly's alarm already started ringing.
I'm still intent on going for my jog later, motivation from the new running shoes I just bought at Fila for $39.90. Yes! It's that dirt cheap! It's originally priced at $119.90 okay!! Wanna know where I got such a steal? I'm not telling ya! hahahaha. Ok but since I told Jan already, let's be fair to everybody. LOL.
Rivervale Mall's Fila factory outlet!! =) They're like having a mega sale over there, so hop on over! Baby got a shoe bag there for only $2.90! Last 6 days if I'm not wrong. heh.
Ahhh.. I presume I'll be energetic for half the day, survive part of class later, and drop dead by dinner. Goodness gracious.
But anyway, I was reading some of my old stuff earlier. I realised... now, even my English is going haywired. Very soon, I'll be illiterate. =(
Right, shall try to catch a little sleep for now.
bye!
Cookies and cream, Regi @6:16 AM
Just as I was about to finish packing my bag and head on to sleep, baby gave me a call.
My sweetheart couldn't fall asleep, and so, we ended up playing guessing games over the phone.
From challenging each other to name all the food in Mac, to KFC, to Pasta Mania, to Long John, to all the can drinks in the world...
Until he was sleepy and ready to go to bed.
He's my boyfriend, my bestfriend, my diary, my playmate, my comfort, my pillar of strength and my (spoilt) musical box.
And I love him a lot.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:25 AM
That's When I Love You
Aslyn
When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway
So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what
Ohhhh no matter what
When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway
So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what
Ohhhh no matter what
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:49 PM
Crossroads
If, for once in a lifetime, you were given the chance to change your life, would you?
In life, there'll always be regrets, and instances where we wish we could alter the way things turned out. But we always knew we can't.
But what if, one day you realise you can do something about it?
Not to alter things that already happened.. but decide or do something about how you want that aspect of your life to be like? To make changes even before anything ever happens..
Would you do it?
So I thought about it...
It's like coming to a crossroad.
And where everything's laid out right in front of me. I can't decide which is best for everyone.
They always say to let nature take its own course.
What's meant to be will eventually be. And there's no point forcing things.
I would be tempted to decide on the spot, but I have considerations.
I considered if it is being selfish. I considered if this is playing God. I considered if I really want it. And what if, there comes a day where I regret it.
And like every decision, there're parts of the decision that'll make you forgo certain things.
So, am I ready to forgo the rest just to achieve one selfish desire?
If I had to make a decision, that'd mean to let go of what would be a hindrance to the outcome.
If I really want a decision made that badly, any let go would be worth it.
But fickle is me, and I know I'd have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I'd had it forgone.
So maybe if there's an all round solution, it'd be best.
Yet, nothing is perfect in this world. And no solution would be butterfly effect free.
At such a crossroad, what should it really be like?
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:45 PM
Did you see the moon tonight?
That beautiful crescent, along with a big, bright star( yes it could have been a satellite.. but still...).
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:40 PM
Baby and I didn't manage to go for kbox today.. :(
But it's okay, we caught Harry Potter!
Also because we couldn't catch Ratatouille, that only screens in August 30.. T_T
That aside, Harry Potter wasn't all that bad this time..
Wasn't much of an award winning kind of awesome to me, but it wasn't as bad as the previous one. Other than the fact that there's no more Cedric to ogle at..
Oh, I didn't read the books.. so I've a question..
Is Harry not supposed to have the scar anymore? Cuz he didn't have the scar anymore in this episode.. Is it part of the story or?????? HELP!
And baby came over after that to help fix our router, which once again, went wrong.
So apparently, we've to get a new router now. Arghhh I hope we get it fast.. I can't wait to download more stuff.
Ok, seems like I need a lot a lot of cash.
1. PSP (~$350)
2. External hard disk (~$100?)
3. running shoes (~$100?)
4. HP earpiece (~$40)
5. DVD-R (~$30?)
So if we average it out and total it, I need approximately $620.
Wow.
And I haven't calculated how much to set aside for food and entertainment, occassional shopping cravings, baby's 21st, friends' birthdays, Le Little, rainy days, and my Anna Sui scent.
This is just too awesome...
Rob a bank!
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:08 AM
I thought I was okay, and I got over it.
Until I had to decide if I want to head on out.
Then it strucked me, that maybe, I'm still bugged by it.
I'm still bugged by the fact that you were selfish and you expected me to feel alright.
For the few nights, I allowed myself to feel.
I allowed myself to be like before.
And tonight, I wondered why I did that.
I wondered why I didn't persist.
You can call me vengeful all you want, I don't really care.
I'm more afraid of going through that disappointment you made me go through the last time, one more time.
The little things that give you away. They gave you away the previous time. I don't think I'm quite prepared to risk it one more time. At least, not now.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:59 AM
Can you believe how manipulative some people can be?
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Well anyway, since my vid's taking forever to load, here's another entry..
You know, I was reading the papers while waiting for baby to have his haircut.
Then I came across this article where our MM Lee told us not to lose the precious mother tongue.
And I felt ashamed and sad for a while.
For that instant, I wanted to test myself and started mumbling some sentences in mandarin.
Then I recalled how I stammered the other day at tuition when I had to translate some regulations I set for my student to his mother. Can you believe it? I actually couldn't even piece my sentence at ease.
I don't want to lose the ability to speak mandarin. I used to mock at people who can't even speak mandarin properly. And now, it's my turn. Oh, maybe it's karma.
But everytime I think of reading the language, I get a little uncomfortable. And I'd push the thought away. I wonder what happened.
I feel proud of the fact that us Singaporeans are generally bilingual. And I don't want to end up being only able to speak English. :(
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:01 AM
At the chalet. :)
Okay, so I've made a promise, and I must adhere to it. Otherwise I'm so gonna make everyone around me that really cares, unhappy.
I should really stop hanging out late.. and stop sleeping late. My complexion's sacrificing....
Anyway, I cannot believe this is happening, but baby's going Kbox with me tomorrow! Amazing!!!!!
And to two of my newly attached friends Bish and Shuling, GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! :)
So now, off to my last 3 episodes of oth... weehee. I hope my City of Angels completes tonight. I need to witness for myself how touching it really is! And then let jan witness it too. heh
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:28 AM
I am fucking tired.
Not physically. Just, tired somehow.
I wasn't feeling really okay physically.
I sent jan home, sent myself home, in a half heavy head.
And when I came back, to realise that I fucking lost my bloody keys.
Locked myself out of the stupid house, woke my dad up to open the door for me.
Came back, and I had to be Psychopath-psychologist Regina.
Heart doctor.
Why don't you get the point?
I'm sick. I'm not feeling okay.
It's okay that you don't show any concern. It's okay that you don't give a shit.
But can you just let me rest on my own?
bloody hell.
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:19 AM
Tonight, baby made me a really happy girl.
I've an amazing boyfriend. You know that?
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:19 AM
Hello Kuala Lumpur!
Day One...
We had lunch at this chinese restaurant which didn't have any edc machines for us to use Visa. Weird. Then we shopped around at Sungei Wang, which will eventually be baby's and my favourite place to shop at.
Look at their Famous Amos! Felt more like our Candy Empire to me. They don't just sell cookies. They have soft toys, candies, more candies, and even fruits and ice cream!
The massage was great by the way. It was only RM35 (before all the ridiculous tax). The process was rather painful.. but the after effect was truly sensational. haha.And the best thing is, we did it after shopping and lunch.
After the massage, we went back to the hotel, cleaned up, rested and set off to our second mall. Times Square. It's said to be the largest shopping centre in KL, and houses the largest Borders in the world. They have an indoor theme park!
We had dinner at this Teppanyaki restaurant, thinking that the food would be good.Apparently not. The food turned out like cai4 fan4, and the wait was surprisingly long.
And the biggest prize was their Gyoza. Check out the last photo in that collage. The gyoza came, SongHui asked,'what's this?!', and the waitress happily told us 'Gyoza la?' . CHAMPION! It looked more like pancakes to us!!! And it tasted horrible too.
So after dinner, we went to their Superbowl for bowling. My first ever bowling experience!
It was pretty fun anyway. I had quite a lot of beginner's luck. haha! It was Buy 3 games and get 1 game free night after 10pm, so we had 12 games in total.
And after that, Caleb was hungry. Impressive how fast guys digest their food, and don't look fat.
So we went to this stretch of food stalls for supper. They had buskers everywhere! And their singers sang pretty well. They can even sing chinese songs!
At the end of the day, baby and I bought a vodka back to the hotel, but didn't drink it till the last day before checking out. hahaha. We totally forgot all about it!
And quite some gum too. Ever seen Mentos in Red Orange flavour?? Taste pretty good anyway. haha!
And our day one buys!
Day Two...We cabbed to KLCC. Their starting meter was RM2 only!! Gosh, so if you do the math, it's less than S$1. And it takes forever for the meter to even jump 10cents. AMAZING RIGHT?! Dirt cheap!
And on the way... I caught sight of this huge 7-11..
Went KLCC, where all the high end boutiques are, and had lunch at this french vietnamese restaurant, bongsen. The food on the whole was pretty alright, and I must say, it was the best in our entire trip. haha. And the total bill burnt away mine and baby's combined food budget. LOL.
And in KLCC, they had this Premier Paid Toilet!!! Other toilets are free, but this one toilet requires you to pay RM2 before you can enter. hahaha. I wonder how special this toilet is.. Come to think of it, I should have just paid that RM2, and entered for the experience. LOL. By the way, KLCC is really boring. Baby and I had donuts at Dunkin' Donuts while wasting time away... and it was a bad experience. The service was inefficient and they overcharged us. We even had to approach them to clarify. Tsk.
And in KLCC, they had this Premier Paid Toilet!!! Other toilets are free, but this one toilet requires you to pay RM2 before you can enter. hahaha. I wonder how special this toilet is.. Come to think of it, I should have just paid that RM2, and entered for the experience. LOL. By the way, KLCC is really boring. Baby and I had donuts at Dunkin' Donuts while wasting time away... and it was a bad experience. The service was inefficient and they overcharged us. We even had to approach them to clarify. Tsk.
And in the evening, we walked over to Chinatown. Oh, while walking, we saw a rat and Caleb screamed for his life. Impressive!
Well actually, Chinatown there felt more like ThailandTown to me. The market place was full of thai people and their fake stuff were really applaudable. They have everything! Coach, Guess, LV, Gucci, Adidas, Timberland, you name it.
We had dinner at this place. Remember this place everyone! Do not patronise them!!
And here's why you should not patronise them. Songhui drank a can of expired 100Plus!! OMG. Who the hell does business with expired drink cans in their shop?! And they didn't even seem one bit affected by the fact at all... The cleanliness level there is really questionable. Tsk tsk.
So after a very long time shopping, squeezing, bargaining and sweating in the marketplace, as usual, Caleb was hungry. And we went to the food street again for dessert. I didn't bring out my camera.. so this is what Caleb and Loy had. Their dessert was really good by the way.. And speaking of which, I realised I kind of miss it already. haha.
My day 2 buys!
Last day..
We had lunch at this bak kut teh restaurant. The food was okay, just a little too salty.
Then it was last minute shopping for everybody! And I got these.
On the way back.. I watched Daffy Duck and Mr Vampire2 (some really ancient chinese vampire show which was seriously funny. haha)
So there, KL was amazing. The entire experience was fresh and interesting. I enjoyed it pretty much, even though I'm sure I'd not survive there if I lived there for good. Haha. I still have quite a lot of photos... but it'll take me forever to compress the file size, upload and blog about it. So here's what we did roughly!I'm looking forward to more trips. =) The end year trip to BK with Jan!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:32 PM
According to Wikipedia,
Ethnocentrism is the tendency to look at the world primarily from the perspective of one's own culture. It is defined as the viewpoint that “one’s own group is the center of everything,” against which all other groups are judged. Ethnocentrism often entails the belief that one's own race or ethnic group is the most important and/or that some or all aspects of its culture are superior to those of other groups. Within this ideology, individuals will judge other groups in relation to their own particular ethnic group or culture, especially with concern to language, behaviour, customs, and religion. These ethnic distinctions and sub-divisions serve to define each ethnicity's unique cultural identity.
Hmmmm I know someone who's ethnocentric....
MY MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:03 PM
I promise a proper KL post after I get all the pictures, edit and collage them, and after I'm over and done with calculating my total expenditure and packing my buys. =)
So anyway, bottom line is, shopping in KL for yourself (girls) is easy. But it's not easy to shop for gifts.. so... not everyone gets presents. Sorry!
The prices there are pretty much like Singapore's, and most of their stuff are what we see in Far East/Bugis. Just that they probably have more variety.
And the thing I really hate about this entire trip apart from the fact that their cleanliness is really questionable, is that the service there sucks rock bottom! And the worst thing is, you have to add 5% service tax 10% govt tax to ALL their advertised prices. So yes, if they tell you the service is RM35, please do the math and pay them RM40.25. It's like paying for the service that you don't get. Tsk.
So actually, 7% in Singapore is very much justified judging from the wonderful and efficient service we get here. And when we don't, complains are always taken into account and improved. Over there, don't even bother thinking of complaining. Just be barbaric and you'll get your way.
I shall park myself at home to unpack properly tomorrow. For now, sleep is very very important. Right Jan? haha. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:00 AM
HELLO SINGAPORE!
Did you miss me?
pictures up after collating!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:32 AM
Please give me time.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:08 AM
Weehee I went for dinner with Jan, Lester, Cj and friend at chomp chomp earlier. Then into this I-forgot-the-name pub for a while and I left to get stuff from Wendy.
Ahhhh so totally cannot wait for the trip tomorrow.
I can't wait to get out of this place for a good getaway. Away from a constantly drunk father.
And unnecessary heartaches.
So you guys have fun here in Singapore!
All hail the trip! It better be fun. =)
Goodbye Singapore,
Hello Kuala Lumpur!
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:26 PM
Yesterday, baby came over, and we were supposed to plan for our trip's itenary.. But we ended up playing monopoly and catching snippets of Pan's Labyrinth. hehe. And, I got defeated hands down by baby in monopoly in just less than half an hour! LIKE WHAT THE HELL!!! =(
Then we went for dinner with daddy at my aunt's place. The food was damn good. =) So after dinner, baby and I were busy fighting each other on the PSP, stuffing fruits down, and I got some ringgit from my aunt. hehe.
And after everything, we fled off to watch Transformers at Jubilee (which we thought were having the 5$ deal. Apparently not for weekends..). AND IT ROCKED!! Gosh, I never thought I'd like it. But amazingly, it impressed me. The cars were so hot. heh.
When I got home, Jan and Lester were coming to my place already. So we had another round of Monopoly till 5am in the morning. I got kicked ass again. Sigh. I wonder where all my monopoly luck went to. Just look at their leftover money. and mine.
At the end of the game, I'm only left with $400.
Just look at Lester's sprawl of cash.
Who the hell gets so much $5000 just by renting hotels at Geylang and Serangoon?!
Even Jan has more money than me!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:03 PM
I think baby's very nice. He keeps telling me that he takes care of me, dotes on me (not material wise) and will always protect me.
He'll always share everything with me. Even the best chocolate-sinful cake he's ever had (but i suspect it's a scam. WANT ME TO GROW FAT SO HE CAN LAUGH AT ME!!) , and even the very last bit of water he has. No matter where, when, how, he'll always put my interests at heart.
Very blissed right. =)
Just went for supper with Pooh crew, and I'm so sorry zhenyang and juneji (eh mention you again!) I directed you guys wrong way. hahaha. Ended up taking a longer route... and both of them had to drive and navigate albeit being very, very tired. hehehe. So sorry!
Ok, KL trip in 2 days!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:53 AM
I was reminded of how angry I was.
They said that time will fade the anger. They said time will remove the disappointment.
But apparently, not in this case.
I was instantly reminded of how angry, disappointed and upset I was.
All the anger rushed through me instantly and I couldn't help but get angry all over again.
I cannot stomach the unhappiness and no, no questions; I'm not talking about it.
I thought about what I want exactly.
And really, I think what I need now, instead of want, is time.
Just give me time to forget about how mad I am, and to forget about what made me so mad.
Give me ample time to revert back to normal.
But I won't promise that normal is possible.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:47 AM
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Cookies and cream, Regi @3:14 PM
To be able to post 4 entries a night, is a feat.
It proves my boredom brought about by insomnia, and the fact that half the world's out having fun, while the other half's sleeping. As such, nobody for me to MSN.
And what have I done for the past few hours?
Mental check.
1. Read 4 chapters of Second Prize
2. Packed my wardrobe
3. Surfed Friendster and found like a million old friends
4. THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A GOD DAMNED ARMS RACE!!! (x infinity)
5. Re-watched another episode of OTH s1. (I refuse to start on s2 since my s1 isn't complete)
6. Cursed the potential buyer of 3 items from thy-closet who decided to go MIA after me replying 'sorry I don't do swaps... i'm terribly sorry.. is it ok with you?'
7. Frowned at my own complexion due to late nights
8. Talked to boo for an hour odd (weeeheeee~)
9. Kept walking to the kitchen, but ended up reminding myself NO MORE SUPPERS
10. Blogged a million times, and exaggerated a trillion.
Not too bad for 3 odd hours. =)
And now that it's 4am already, I'd better hit the sack and go dream of our wonderful upcoming KL trip that will not go wrong. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:47 AM
Now that school has officially started, I'd better carry out the promise I made.
I'm about to file to draw away from crowds, late nights, booze, clubs, pubs, suppers, stayovers etc. And back to being who I was, before the holidays started. Sure I'll be missing all the fun, all the action. But I sure as hell wouldn't want to risk another module and/or the peace between my parents and I.
So, like it or not, I have to compromise on that... and only return to all that fun.. 4 months later.
It's only 4 months anyway.... 16 weeks will breeze pass quickly. . . . . . . .
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:47 AM
A song speaks a million words.
There're 3 songs on my player now, on repeat mode for the past hour.
1. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
There's something about this song that makes me sad, and I like listening to depressing songs at night because late in the night, when everyone's asleep and silent, that's when it's the perfect time to ponder.
2. When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
I still cannot believe Stell cried while watching this video though I've to admit it's rather touching. But... cry!?
3. 4 in the Morning - Gwen Stefanie
Nostalgic somehow. Heart wrenching in a way. I never really noticed Gwen could sound so mellow.
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning
& the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning
& the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning
& the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:59 PM
I'm okay, we're okay.
A couple of randoms today:
1. The Hokkien mee at chinatown's foodstreet isn't very nice actually. So much for 5 bucks.
2. I kind of miss working at OX already.
3. I forgot which Shop n Save Auntie Jenny's working at so I can't find her...
4. I think booboo slept already.
5. I shall not shop in Singapore!!! DETERMINATION!!
6. Catharsis means emotional release. Interesting.
7. I am gradually toning down to my pre-holiday life. No more late nights unless once in a blue moon.
8. I'm doing Le Littles tomorrow afternoon (Mel! READ THIS!)
9. The Painted Veil and The Holiday are pretty nice movies.
10. I gained weight. T_T
Digressing, nat was directing me to www.baidu.com where I can easily get songs off their site, and that's where I had a sudden realisation that even after studying/living with Chinese all the way up to A levels, higher chinese somemore, the sight of it scares me.
The entire website was in chinese, and in truth, I couldn't even be bothered to search for anything without the help of nat. I didn't even want to read word for word.
I am immensely ashamed of myself at one point. So much for reading so much Chinese more than a decade of my academic career, so much for even studying chinese literature. Now, I'm sure I barely make the mark of an AO student in college.
I'm sure my teachers in NY will be ashamed of this.
But I later found some excuse for myself. Well, maybe not excuse. The highest possibility really.
Maybe because.. chinese scared the shit out of me already?
Studying hcl for O levels wasn't all that a nightmare. In fact, it was quite an achievement for me to have breezed through it albeit countless demoralising encounters by the teachers-who-originated-from-China. But studying hcl for A levels was a hell lot different.
It gave me so much hell, I swore I'll never touch chinese again ever in my educational career. I'd rather settle for something less instead of taking chinese in somewhere better.
I swore off the language, and refused to write or read any chinese in the next few months after the exams. And soon enough, I lost touch with the language. I couldn't really remember much of the shit I studied so hard for, I couldn't really remember how to write, how to read. There were instances where I shocked myself so much - I can't even write my name without having to recall for five minutes.
I must say, I'm rather ashamed of this fact. Afterall, I was once proud of the fact that there was one subject I'm better at. But that was, well, in primary school. I had countless chinese essays up on the school notice board, and all my chinese teachers loved me. Things took a major turn when I entered secondary school of course. I wasn't the only good one. There were better ones. I was just better in my primary school because everyone generally, were English speaking.
Not a convent for nothing.
Today, I turn away from the slightest chinese paragraph I see. Not because I still hate the language so much. But because I know I probably won't be able to read a quarter of the words there. Some people, even after distancing from this language, they can still manage the language rather well. But when you can't, it's probably a blockage you built.
I don't know whether to regret about setting this blockage or not.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:54 PM
It pained quite a bit in case you didn't realise.
What happened to us?
Why is it a 'can't be bothered' now?
Why all the sarcasm?
Why 'irresponsible' , why 'hypocrite blasphemy' ?
I tried to recollect the beautiful times. I tried to concentrate and focus only on the times we were happier and sarcasm wasn't a tool to stab each other's heart out. I tried to remember that no matter what happens, you love me.
But it's depressing having to think of it...
Why did we elevate so quickly into a stage where we are mean to each other?
How did things spiral so fast?
Turn down the heat, turn down the heat.
You matter so much to me, I can't help the heart-stabbing-cry-my-eyes-out pain.
Why are you leaving me to feel this way on my own?
Why do you not bother anymore?
What happened?
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:22 PM
What is it like to be plunging down great heights carefreely?
To be free of all discomfort, unhappiness, and fall freely.
To feel nature sweep pass me at the speed of light.
To be unfeeling and still, happy.
The day I stop caring about you, will be the day you disappoint me best.
One last chance, don't blow it.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:01 AM
I was reading through some old archives of a friend's blog.
It brought back a lot of memories.
Somehow, for just a moment, I wished things never changed.
We were once such good friends.
But as I went further and further back into the archives... I realised, I still have a lot of unhappiness I haven't spoke of.
The further I went back, the more I read between the lines, and the more upset I got.
But it all died down when I reminded myself again, that it's all in the past and nothing will change anymore.
You probably don't know this, but I iwsh the next time 'he' decides to talk about how unworthy and jackass your 'old' friends are, maybe he should read up on the archives first. If there's a need, I'll even dig out mine.
It's saddening really, that until today, it's still my fault.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:23 PM
I don't like how 'love' has become just another casual vocabulary to some people.
I think I mentioned about it before, and I'm gonna mention it again.
I've met so many different people.. acquaintances and friends alike. So many of them use 'love' so casually like it really is just another 'see you soon!'.
I must say that in the past, I really thought of them as genuine sincerity. Like when I tell people I love them, or I miss them, I really mean it, and I don't mean it as just another casual remark/end of conversation sentence. But as I start to get to know different people, I realise that my thinking's outdated and too innocent.
After the recent personal bad experience, and another recent bad experience of a friend's, I'd honestly say that I'm getting quite scared of this. Whenever friends tell me 'I miss you' or 'Love you!', I'd really get a little frightened and unaware of how I should reply.
I no longer really want to tell friends if I love them or not. Now, I'd really rather bang on the mutual understanding and trust, that if we're really friends, it really doesn't matter if I say it or not. And if I make the extra point and effort to talk/listen and keep in contact with you, I must like you enough. If I don't make the extra point to, I probably don't care if you like me or not.
Of course, some people deserve second chances, while some others don't. It's subjective.
But I really don't think you deserve a second chance. You've disappointed me this once, and it's quite enough. I'll still talk to you, listen to you, but it won't be the same anymore.
But when it comes to relationships.. somehow I adopt a seperate view. I'd still adore the occassional (better if it's often) 'I love you'. And I really don't get afraid when I hear it, and I've no qualms about telling Fab I love him. It's different. Because I've had enough bad experiences with friends, versus a boyfriend who only drops 'I love you' once in a blue moon.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:08 AM
Julianna and me, my last day at Taka and she said we better take a picture cuz she'll miss me. haha! how sweet.
Peiyu and me at Kw's party..
And the four of us. =) Look how pretty baby is. =/
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:17 AM
Wa lao. I swear I'm gonna start getting all vulgar and judgemental right this instant.
I was browsing through some friendster profiles via my cousin's. (she's 14 by the way) And I swear Friendster's getting fucking corrupted I tell you. These stupid kids just keep adding people they don't know, and introduce themselves via testimonials, and then start recruiting 'family members' and start proclaiming their love for each other like as if they've known for a lifetime.
And like as if they're highly mysterious and there're loan sharks after their measly lives, every single profile I went, is locked. LOCKED!! Like what the hell, I thought they wanted to know the whole world!?
And then, their stupid display picture. I'm surprised I haven't died of exasperation. Half the profiles I viewed had little girls trying very hard to act cute/pretty/gothic/emo-shit. I wonder what happened to these girls. WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO THEMSELVES!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Worst part is, their English!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THEIR ENGLISH!!! Where did all the grammar practice, spelling tests, vocabulary bank books go to!? What's becoming of the society!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We've been defeated hands down by the twits. The rest of us must take caution. We must take pride in proper sentences and spelling. Never mind if there's no perfect grammar/spelling. Just don't go all eu/lurbb/moiXxXxX ok??? AND DON'T ALTERNATE YOUR CAPS!!!
I swear if I'm the education minister, I'll pick them out one by one and drill a hole in their heads manually. Pffffft.
Monopoly 2 days in a row!!!! Gosh, I'm rather sick of it at the moment. All that 'BUY!', 'PAY $1400!', 'OH SHIT!', 'Fuck you la! Pay up! Not one cent less!', 'Keep the change man!', 'Eh eh eh trade!' and 'Heng ahh~' for 2 days and it's really getting unhealthy. Tsk tsk. And it's one hell of a longgggg~~ game that can go up to 4 hours a time. Really, you gotta be unscrupulous when it comes to business. hahaha. Be as cunning as you can man. ;P
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:04 AM
Does retail therapy really work all the time?
Because if it does, I'm pretty damn sure I'd remain depressed and pitiful for the month of July.
I've decided to curb the shopping monster inside me. All shopping will be concluded in KL.. with a budget. And thereafter, it's pocket-tightening-pocketing-shrinking project.
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I'm feeling nasty.
But still, it's rather balanced out. I met fab for lunch, and Ru for a walk around town. Tonight, it'll be friends' night again, and very soon, it'll be school, and finally, KL (ie, a lot of time with fabby).
Fab bought me a new Pluto today... we haven't named it. But it looks pretty cute...
So currently on the list, we have..
1. Pluto
2. Plufly
3. Father Pluto
4. (toilet bowl pluto)
5. RegiPlutoJunior
6.FabbyPlutoJunior
7. Mr Plu
8. Miss To
9. (that big head one in fab's house)
10. (the new pluto)
Whaaaa big family. Did I miss any out?
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:37 PM
Monopoly's a ball of fun.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:55 AM
Today's the first Sunday in a row that I did nothing but spent time with myself. And maybe a little bit of family.
Woke up in the afternoon after I'm fully satisfied with my sleep, and when I finally realised that my nose isn't blocked anymore. Drove out with Stella to get durian crepes for Auntie Jenny. Went Taka to look for her, and boy, I felt so sad that I won't be working with her anymore. Drank some Chardonnay, told Stella all about wines (that I know of...) and we went home.
Came home, turned my room upside down, inside out. I packed literally every single cupboard available in my room (read : cupboards, I didn't do drawers.), cleaned all the cupboards and mirros etc. Changed my bedsheet covers finally! It all took me half a day, but it was all worth it. =)
So now I'm only left with finishing up the books I have, and updating Le Little Shop (Yes I haven't shut it down!).
***
Why do people give special names to special people - to give a special exclusivity, a seperate priority and specialty that not just anyone has. It's about making someone feel special and needed. And not just another listening ear, company and/or passer-by in your life.
There's no exclusivity with you. There never was any. There's nothing special about being your _. It's only in name. It's only on the surface. And it feels more like a habitual obligation to me right now. Everything I do, it's because I've been doing it for so long, it feels weird to suddenly stop doing it altogether. I just wish you'd see, how insignificant this feels.
Friends, that's what they call it.
***
Gosh I love censorship.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:19 PM
I clinched my third package deal today, but I'm not really happy about this one. Ben clinched half of it apparently.. I didn't know about it until the very minute I closed the deal. But oh well, half is still better than nothing.
And today marks the last day of work for me at Taka. Auntie Jenny bought me this Meiji heartshaped chocolate.. and some coconut sweets. so sweet right. =) I really like her. haha. I shall get her some durian crepes tomorrow, despite the runny nose.
Kaiwei's birthday after work, and poor Peiyu and I were so bored cuz our boyfriends were busy socialising.. and we didn't know three quarter the crowd there. Plus, I had a really bad argument with mum, so yea.
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People leave after countless disappointments, not just one.
It started with me taken aback, and it went on to being irritated.
Gradually, it developed into disappointment.
Why, of all people, you?
Why are you the one disappointing me, when you are clear aware of how much I hate that form of disappointment?
Why?
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I'm sick.
Bad bad flu.
In bad need of a lot of love care and concern.
Good night.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:31 AM
It's easy to make people smile, if you smile first.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:54 PM
Carpe Diem
So I read that Carpe Diem really means, to seize life at it's fullest.
Anyway, I've just written up a list of to-dos the few days I take a breather off work.
Speaking of which, this coming Saturday's my last day working at Taka, and I'm quite sad. I've made like great friends with the auntie selling Illy coffee next booth, and she really treats me like family. The moment she heard I'm down with a cold, she stuffed me with packets and packets of tea so I'd recover after drinking them. Just the other day, she even bought me food and always brings free samples to share with me. We even shared free Godiva chocolates!!( haha Godiva staff also greedy for coffee okay...) I can even share problems with her leh. How cool is that? Considering the fact that I was pretty intimidated by her the first 2 days. Just in 2 weeks we're such good friends already. And she even aided me in my signing of package the other day. =)
Next week, I shall head down to Shop and Save to look for her and get her free samples. haha!
Alright I'm really sleepy now... good night!
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:44 AM
Why do people like to act on the sly?
It's so tiring.
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On a lighter note, here're the pictures from my camera. I haven't gotten the rest from the others..
-Suddenly, I've no more mojo to blog. No more mojo to even continue this blog. Seriously, what's the point, other than me coming here weekly to refresh on memories (yes, I do that.) ?
But it seems more like a habit everytime I log into blogger and start typing religiously.
And by the way, I cannot believe my eyes, but I've got Finance classes scheduled IN THE EVENINGS!!!! Like what the hell. 7pm to 10pm. CLEMENT-FREAKING-TI!!!! God. I wonder, if I got myself into a cold war with my dad and I can't drive to school, what time would I reach home?! Faint.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:55 AM
oh my god this is scary shit.
and it reminds me of what I went through for damn long 1.5years ago.
no no no no no i don't want it again...................................
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:50 PM
Because I love you, I will change for you.
I want you to know that even though ultimately, it may benefit myself, but I'm changing for you. I want to change so you will be happy, I want to see you happy.
It will take time, because changes don't happen overnight.
But I'll guarantee you this time, it's not just talk.
We'll cooperate, won't we? Like how we always do.
You'll support me, won't you? Just like how you always said you will.
I can't promise you a total change, but I can promise you a gradual one.
Be with me on this one, because we're not giving up on each other.
Because I love you, for you, I will.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:54 PM
This is a absolutely scary world because you never know who's true to you.
Gone are the days where everyone's pure and innocent, and here are the days where silence doesn't really mean silence anymore.
People are changing all the time, and the people you once knew, or once thought you knew, are actually gone.
I am honestly uncomfortable with the idea of being in such a place. It tires me out, and I really don't want to live my life being sceptical about everybody. But it seems like one of the fundamentals of growing up, really is about learning not to trust anyone else but yourself.
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I just got home from dinner and chill out with quite a few people actually..
So there were Jan, Lester, CJ, Evon, Shan, Kston. We had dinner at this Mexican place Cha Cha Cha, and then went over to Wala Wala's. Pictures up tomorrow.
Work was rather bad today, I didn't sell a shit. =(
And Wendy actually asked me to join her at St James today.. and I was really tempted since it was free entrance plus 10 free drinks for girls. But none of them liked St James, plus I'd be damn tired tomorrow.. so I gave it a miss. But it's amazing still, that my cousin and Jan are actually friends. hahaha what a small world.
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You know, I'm actually rather glad I'm friends with Jan and Nat.
Even though I haven't known Jan for more than a week, I still think she's a good thing that's happened and really, I haven't seen another 22/3 year old sweeter than that.
And even though I haven't known Nat for more than a year, she's really an awesome friend to me, and I always enjoyed myself with her.
Actually, these are two people I find, really true, and that's what I'm really looking for in a friendship right now. Friendship's so vulnerable and sensitive, and I've had enough experiences and I don't want more. For now, I'm happy.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:13 AM
From how I perceive things to be, I'll start drawing away from you. Well, maybe I already have.
It's true when they say, friends never last.
People always leave.
Always.
Cookies and cream, Regi @7:23 PM
I'm in a superbly good mood today. =)
I feel damn achieved and proud of myself.
I clinched the second package in my one month employment with Order Express today. =)
I talked to the couple for God-knows-how-long, and when they told me they needed to think about it, I was seriously dejected.. But I was kinda used to it.
But thank goodness I didn't knock off immediately, but went to buy bread instead.
Because when I returned, they were there, waiting for me to sign the deal with them!
SWEET!
More commission more commission. =)
Baby and I shall be embarking on Plan Z very soon. I can't wait! It'll be after the KL trip.
On a lighter note, I went to the library yesterday, and I got myself the Complete Idiot's Guide to Wine, in bid to improve my knowledge on wine and not appear such a noob in front of Ben, the complete guide to almost-perfect sales. haha.
But, I realised I'd have to stop working pretty soon.
Oh well, no harm learning more stuff.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:16 AM
Yayyy Kbox pictures. Although in really messy order... I dont know how Blogger arranges them seriously.
And finally, more zouk pictures with the girl who loves me plenty. haha!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:00 AM
Hersheys. Jacq's dog. Damn cute right! It's been a hundred years since I last saw her, and she's still the same. Always dragging some old cloth, wanting to play fetch. How sweet! And she's not fierce at all. Look at her stubby feet!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:47 AM
I am a stupid fool.
I always end up doing things I shouldn't, and start regretting.
From this moment, I won't be committing the same mistake again.
Closure.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:16 AM
Met Jan, Nat, Lester, Daphne and Aaron after work today and we went Kbox. Boy, it costed a bomb.
Working at Order Express helped me learn a lot.
I meet so many different people each time, I learn about wine from people, I taste wine, I learn about coffee, I see office politics get ugly, I learn how to manage a shop, I learn how to interact with customers gradually, and I learn about responsibility.
Today, while working, I suddenly realised, that if I were to stop working when I start school, it'll mean I have only one week left with them. And it made me feel really sad all of a sudden. Like, all these 4 weeks there, I've grown attached to the management, to the people and to my job scope. If I stop working, I'll stop learning. I'll stop the experience. And I like the experience.
These days, this boss from the company, Peter, would come downstairs, grab a cuppa, talk to me about life, and office politics. He taught me how people get ugly, how fame and authority destroys peace, how even a simple machine in the office can show the ugliness in people, and today, he taught me how to use the different interesting traditional coffee makers.
It's interesting too, when Steven and Julianna come downstairs, and we start making fun of each other. Like how Steven can't pronounce mozerella, and thinks I should trust his pronounciation for vermincilli (how to spell?). And how we cheated him into thinking that our bags cost 60$.
Like how Felix and Kin would come down and help me close the shop, how Kelvin always drinks coffee, and told me today that our coffee tasted sour because I adjusted too little water, how Jason exposed himself that he didn't study barista in Australia and asked how my day is all the time, how Janice comes down with Julianna asking me what we need to stock up, and randomly gossip, how Jamie always comes down with Steven and seems to always embarrass herself such as walking into the Gents thinking it's the Ladies, how Seymone/Cynthia/Linghui always takes over my shift and vice versa, how I already memorised the music playing in the background, how the cleaners, food vendors, watson staff already recognise and know me, and how I actually enjoy working there.
The holidays passed so fast.. School will start on July 2. Should I continue, or should I not?
*Edit
I just did something stupid.
Fuck.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:50 AM
Create your own Friend Test here
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:17 AM
So yesterday, before mambo, I met up with Ruth, Jiewan, Jiale and Shirley for dinner, like finally.
Had a quick dinner then Jiale and Shirley sped off, leaving the three of us roaming around while waiting for time to pass.
-We entered Phuture first.. didn't have to queue! Ruikun works as a bouncer there sometimes that's how. heh.
Ran around from Phuture to Zouk, Zouk to Phuture, and then ended up at Zouk till the lights came out. Time flies when you're having fun, and time flew yesternight. Julianna and Janice went toooooo! How fun. =)
Took quite a lot of pictures.. some on the dancefloor but they're with some other girl and it'll take a long while before I get hold of them so shall make do for now. =)
Easy to tell who's the shortest here!! And by the way, I'm really not the same height as Janice and Daphne(my new found friends). Janice is really 1.7m! She was bending down. haha.
So now you know who's the shortest.....
My all time favourite girl, who kept hugging and telling me she loves me, when she was high.
My new found friend Janice who's damn sweet and we were coincidentally wearing something pretty similar! And gosh, she's a chinese teacher, can you tell?
After snapping this, Nat happily flashed the picture in front of me, and said 'HAHA! I TOOK YOUR UNGLAM POSE!'
Very unglam meh?
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:41 AM
Mambo last night was a blast!
It was such good fun.
I danced away all the alcohol, and so no hangover for me today!
Made a couple new friends.. some whom I don't quite remember their names. =x
But it was fun!
Ok pictures later. Work now!
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:02 PM
Arghhhhhh it's a bad thing that Nat left the entire box of cheesecake in the car yesterday night.. BAD THING!
Yes and fab will say it's up to me to control temptations blablabla.
BUT OK I'VE A WEAK SPOT FOR FOOD.
And well... I ate some cheesecake. God it's heavenly.
I'm pretty damned sure it's gonna gain me some kilograms................................................................
Argh the downsides of food. tsk
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:36 AM
Working at Taka's good!
Firstly.. I wasn't one bit tired even though I was standing throughout the shift. I only realised I haven't sat down at all only after seven hours. ha!
And I got to learn a hell lot more about wine through this other guy on shift, Ben. Which is good. I''m always stunned and amazed when he deals with customers. Firm, confident, friendly and quick. BUT!! I still think he's a little smug... especially when he orders us (us including Julianna lehhh) around... tsk.
All the better when baby came along during lunch, got me lunch and ate it with me. =) How sweet!
Oh and as usual, Nat paid me a visit! hahaha.
Alrighty, zouk with Nat, Rui Kun, Wesley (or whichever way the name is spelt) etc tomorrow. =) GOOD!
I'm damn sleepy. But I can't go to sleep cuz I gotta go Downtown East to pick Stelly up. See, I'm such a good sister. =)
Anyway, for all you maryjane lovers out there, do visit http://kayabao.livejournal.com ! I got a pair from there.. from qiushi! and they're damn pretty okay! seriously. And the colour wouldn't run even when wet cuz she used fabric paint. hahaha. IT'S REALLY DAMN PRETTY! I got the Love Struck pair by the way. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:39 PM
I have my own life and I really don't want you to overlap into all of them.
Just like how you don't want me to overlap into yours.
So, take the cue, go away.
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Just got home from Nat's birthday. Went for dinner at Marina South... and zomg nat's friend damn nice. He baked an entire New York cheesecake for her! And it tasted really good. Especially for someone who isn't a fan of cheesecake to like it, it must really taste good. Oh, I meant me by the way. =p
So after that, we went to this open air pub at Marina Pier.. which by the way, was really pretty. And Evon and her 2 friends joined us. Baby, we should go there someday. =) So when they closed, we went to Rest Room at Clarke Quay, had a couple drinks blablabla. And there was this guy who worked there, who happens to be a senior from Zhonghua.. funny, never seen him before but he remembers me. And even remembers seeing me at retail in Paya Lebar like.. a week ago. Hah.
Glad I drove today, gave me an excuse to skip all the alcohol. =)
I've to be at Taka tomorrow morning at 8.45am for work and good heavens, I'm still wide awake. I don't feel quite happy right now but it's okay, I'll sleep on it as usual.
So good night world! Tomorrow must be a better day.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:07 AM
Something tells me that I should start feeling pissed off by you.
It's telling me how selfish you are.
You think I don't know what's going on, yes sunshine?
So you want to share my friends, but you don't want me to share your friends.
Fine by me.
Stop trying to share mine.
You're just like a little kid flaunting her candy, wanting more, and refusing to share.
Go get your own share of fun and fuck off my life, loser.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:40 PM
I went for a long drive yesterday.
Long drives are good, they clear my mind off unnecessary junk, and they relax me a little.
Especially when I speed and start overtaking slow cars.
All the better when I see the speedometer hit 130kmph.
So I don't have to work today, which is a good thing.
Therefore, I have stuff planned. =)
First, I shall catch up on my sleep -which I already did.
Then, I'll pack my room, watch One Tree Hill, hit the library, make my spectacles, grab the car, go for dinner with Nat, Lester, CJ and nat's friends.
By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING NATALIE!! muaaaaaaaah.
I think I need a break. A good one.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:12 PM
I swear by the guns in the police stations, I HATE JOE LOH.
I HATE JOE LOH
I HATE JOE LOH
I hope your tongue rots and your eyes melt.
I hope your intestines get so tangled, you can't even walk properly.
I HATE YOU!!
What, so no keys to Suntec cart, MY FAULT RIGHT?!
OK.
So, NOT SUPPOSED TO WORK AT SUNTEC IS IT?!
FINE! BE THAT WAY!
I'LL MAKE SURE I PASTE MY ASS TO RETAIL OK?
I hope your stupid pushcart sales plummet to a record low and all your clients burn your namecards.
Every morning, all you do, is come over to retail, grab a cuppa, START GOSSIPING ABOUT STEVEN CHONG. WTF. ARE YOU A MAN OR NOT?! GOSSIP GOSSIP GOSSIP. AT LEAST STEVEN ISN'T AS ASSFACED AS YOU ARE. Bloody hell. Scream at me.
Scream somemore I hope your voicebox goes missing.
SCREAM AT ME OVER THE PHONE AGAIN I MAKE SURE YOU DIE BY CHOKING ON WINE CORKS I TELL YOU.
Assface.
And as though my day isn't bad enough,
my heels killed my feet. ppppffffffftttttttttt.
But, fab came over to pass me chocolates. And that made me feel better. Instantly.
Our footsteps will be matched.
Lastly, Joe Loh, FUCK YOU!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:19 AM
Disappointments, a plenty.
I love you.
You love me.
We're a happy family.
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.
Won't you say you love me too?
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:07 AM
15 June 2007:
Do as the caption says.
The people that night...
And our food.
So we were having fun eating..
Until...
FIRE!!!!!!
Smoke!
So when it ceased, we started taking pictures..
And Nat tried to kick me...
I think the Auslese kind of made Natalie tipsy. haha
I think Yisheng bullied her.. she started crying............
I think the Auslese kind of made Natalie tipsy. hahaI think Yisheng bullied her.. she started crying............And lusting over the Auslese.
I made him pose for an emo picture.
And this is my dear Yinru,
whose hair grown so long already!
But as usual, the total Miss Unglam.
So we decided to have fun together, unglamly.
So while we four were cleaning up, guess what was Natalie doing?
THIS!!
Back in the house.
Present time!
But as usual, the total Miss Unglam.
So we decided to have fun together, unglamly.
So while we four were cleaning up, guess what was Natalie doing?THIS!!Back in the house.
Present time!They know I neeeeed money.
AND A VERY PRACTICAL TOPSHOP VOUCHER!
and they took the liberty of making me 2 huge ass watches..
CHECK OUT THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE! =)
And, they got me a rose, some photo frames, a tee from bangkok, all neatly and creatively placed in a box with my name on it. =)
AND A VERY PRACTICAL TOPSHOP VOUCHER!
and they took the liberty of making me 2 huge ass watches..
CHECK OUT THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE! =)
And, they got me a rose, some photo frames, a tee from bangkok, all neatly and creatively placed in a box with my name on it. =)
How sweet!
Thank you sweets!
So after that, we went for a drink at HK cafe, chilled till late, and went home.
So after that, we went for a drink at HK cafe, chilled till late, and went home.
Work today, wedding dinner in the evening.
And occupational hazard got into me, when I saw the red wine, I took it. =x
So cabernet sauvignon it was for me. =)
Ahhhh working at Suntec tomorrrow.. I need to sleep.
Btw, I have a cousin who totally looks like Louis Khoo.
Sweet!
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:40 PM
Pictures Galore!
14 June 2007:
On board the Carlsberg sky tower, 131 metres above sea level. =)
Getting all the fun out of wax figurines at Images of Singapore.13 June 2007:
Pooh Crew Dinner.
And we bumped into Kston !
12 June 2007:
Dinner and shopping with them two sweethearts.
Caption on Friendster: Look at the clown beside me. she thinks she's cute.
Today, I've had one of the best birthdays ever. =)
Thank you darling for the wonderful day and presents. =)
And thank you for being the best company today.
I'm happy today, and that's all that matters!!!!!!!!!
Who cares if I'm 20, and if all freckles, wrinkles, and lower metabolism hits?!?!
TODAY I'M QUEEN!
And, thank you all who sent wishes, and prepared presents! I appreciate all that, and it just adds on to my joy list. =)
And, thank you all who sent wishes, and prepared presents! I appreciate all that, and it just adds on to my joy list. =)
And to my bitch, Kate, I STILL LOVE YOU TO BITCHES (haha) EVEN THOUGH I'M 2O WITH HARDEN WINGS OKAY!
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:22 PM
Eehhhh so cute, dogs have their emo moments too! haha.-
Happy birthday to me!
Went out for dinner with Pooh crew. It's amazing how we're still in contact, meeting up every now and then, and still having stuff to talk about, after 1 year. =)
And thank you June Ji for the (half) treat! haha. =)
Pictures up later!
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I hate having to deal with disappointments.
As we grow older, people tend to get too preoccupied by themselves that they start forgetting.. is it not?
That why, it's always better not to expect.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:13 AM
Finally, no work tomorrow.
No facing the wine bottles, no facing the Delonghi coffee machine, no facing endless orange-space.
Finally, rest.
I haven't had a proper rest in days.
Well, blame nobody but myself.
First, it was room revamp.
Next excuse for sleeping late, reporting to work lethargic and restless - oh because One Tree Hill got into my veins.
I'm tired. Dead exhausted and frustrated.
I've no idea what I'm so frustrated about actually. I'm so frustrated, even the shelves in my room are pissing the fuck out of me. WHY DO SHELVES LOOK SO MESSY NO MATTER HOW I ARRANGE THEM!?
And, I really cannot stand my bedsheet covers. But, just changed, so, too bad.
One more day to my birthday.
Pre-birthday blues are eating into me. Very soon, my age will not start with a 1 anymore. It'll start with a 2. =(
Very soon, freckles, wrinkles and what-have-yous will start invading my face, and tanning would be a serious problem.
When I was a kid, birthdays meant to much more.
Birthdays meant parties, candies, cakes, presents, and fun.
As I age, birthdays don't seem to matter as much anymore.
In fact, I don't even feel like creating such a big hoo-ha out of my 21st next year. But my mother insists I should.
Well, birthdays.
Everyone keeps asking me 'where's your party?' , 'who's invited?' , 'where're you holding your celebration at?'.
Seriously, ever since the first day I went out to celebrate my birthday with my own friends, it's always been a strict tradition. Different groups of friends date me on different days, and we have dinner, etc. Whatever that's planned for me.
I've never had an issue with that.. in fact, I enjoy that idea pretty much.
It's always more like a gathering, a catch-up session especially for people I don't see around often.
Birthdays are becoming increasingly more like just any other day to me these days.
So much so that I really wouldn't feel much of a biggie if I don't get presents or candy anymore. (My dear baby, I mean it.)
I celebrate it for the sake of... conformity I guess.
It's as if it's a tradition that I've to follow. If I don't, I feel like I did something wrong.
Yes it's that exagerrated.
Maybe after my 21st, birthdays will really be just any other day.
And I actually don't quite mind at all.
Alright, time to hit the sack.
Long day ahead tomorrow.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:40 AM
In case anybody needs help with my present (that is if you are really so sweet.....)
I've got two wants that I'm dying to get.........
1. Eriko Imai photobook available at Kinokuniya - $26.80 (after 20% storewide discount.)
2. One Tree Hill 3 season box set available at HMV - $99.95
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so many wants, so little money.
And fabby will most likely say I spend money like water, again.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:09 AM
Definition of exclusive
ex·clu·sive (k-sklsv)
1. Excluding or tending to exclude: exclusive barriers.
2. Not allowing something else; incompatible: mutually exclusive conditions.
3. Not divided or shared with others: exclusive publishing rights.
4. Not accompanied by others; single or sole: your exclusive function.
5. Complete; undivided: gained their exclusive attention
Adapted from Yahoo! Education.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:46 PM
Pictures speak for themselves. =)
I enjoyed my dinner and shopping with them two sweethearts. =)
And ya la, I know my hair very flat la.
Pleaseeee let it fatten up the next few days...................
And by the way, Kate has a new name.
Ajisan Dishwasher!
=)
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:30 PM
Shrek 3 with Yisheng today.
Yes we finally met up! haha.
So, even though I didn't catch 1 & 2, I got pass the movie.
Point is, I finally met up with Yisheng. hahaha HELLO YISHENG I KNOW YOU'RE READING.
Work's getting tiring.. Everyday I start at 10am, wishing 3pm would arrive earlier. And today, work was extended because Julianna got the schedule warped, again.
And by the way, I straightened my hair again. Birthday present from my aunt. I kinda detest the fringe though. Too flat.. but everyone says it'll get back to normal after a couple of days.. so I guess I'll just have to be patient for now. Tsk.
I've been hearing a lot about pre-birthday blues. What is it exactly?
That suddenly your birthday doesn't mean a thing to you anymore? And you start feeling all depressed and emotional over little things?
In that case.. I'm down with pre-birthday blues.
3 more days, people.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:57 PM
There's no more outlet for me to vent anymore.
Everything seems to be in a whirl right now.
And I can't think straight.
I need to write. write. write. write.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:30 AM
Sometimes in life when we get emotional, depressed and edgy, it could all just boil down to one reason in the end.
It could be just because there's some point in our life, where we are feeling void.
And there's a need to fill up that emptiness, with a little colour - new people, new cycle, new experiences, better laughter.
And I'm happy for you, retard. That you're finally sounding happy in your entries again. =)
*
One Tree Hill has got to be the best show, ever.
I wanna be just as wow wow kazaam as Peyton.
I'd love to have a Lucas Scott. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:57 AM
Ok, let's push the woe aside for a night.
I had it bad enough last night.
On a lighter note,
5 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE!!
Have you prepared?!?!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:56 AM
"hello babe hope you like this card that ive sent you.I know that you must be feeling quite horrid and upset bout a/cs but not to worry, juz wanna let you know that u have been a dear friend to me and that i will always be there for you when u need to talk about everything under the sky yeah? i know its tough but hang in there yeah?
Love ya,nat"
*
"Rosy rosy rose.. for the special one,
A rose to say...
You are special to me!
hello boo! i also send you an e-card. sweet??? remember what i said and dun give up on yourself kkk. show mummy that you can do it! and u feel great!. Support you all the way!... and mr p too! .. wowoof!
fabby boo... and mr p"
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:17 AM
So I thought I had a bad enough day at work.
Turns out, my day wasn't so bad, yet.
I did badly for the exams this time.
And even though I'm feeling lousy about it, I have to go through more turmoil, from my mother.
I'm sorry I'm such a failure.
I'm sorry I can't be as outstanding as you want me to.
Sometimes, life gets a tad too tiring.
I wish I had a little more courage to bring myself across the railings.
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Thank you dear.
Thank you for listening to me cry, putting up with my irrational talk, knocking sense into me, and telling me, that you'll love me no matter what.
Thank you Nat.
Thank you for the ecard you sent me, and the sms you texted. Thank you for telling me that I'm a friend dear to you and you love me. I love you too.
Thank you Kate, Shu, Bish, Deb, JW, yc.
Thank you for offering consolation and trying to make me feel better.
My birthday is coming, and while I'm anticipating it, I wish the school had given me a better present instead.
Life gets really tiring.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:42 PM
My Complain Entry.
"People always leave, period. "
I got this from a friend's subnick days ago.
And I told him, that people don't leave unless they have a good reason to stay.
But I came to realise, whether or not they have a good reason to stay, people always leave, eventually.
Perhaps experiences have polished the cynical side of me, to a point where I am capable of saying things like " I should probably start getting used to it".
*
We come from different families, and my family has run for 20 years now. It's the way we've always been since young. Why do you criticise how we work all the time?
Our families are different, you can't expect us to be the same.
I don't expect your family to be just like mine.
I don't have to make every single decision similar to yours to be right.
We have seperate future, and viewpoints.
Your decisions, your lifestyle, your family, may be the best in your eyes, but they are not necessarily the best for me.
Would you understand this?
*
My school has lousy management because even though I was supposed to get my results this evening at 5.30PM, I did not, even until now.
And I'm not the only one. Many other people haven't gotten theirs either.
I'm calling the school up tomorrow to scream at the lousy management.
pffffffft.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:03 AM
How would you like to feel stupid, twice a day?
Just be me.
Life would bring you to a certain point whereby you don't know who's a good friend anymore.
You'll come to a point where you turn sceptical to friends around you.
I keep blaming myself for being busy with school.
I don't think I want explanations anymore.
It's fine. Friends always leave anyway.
I should have known we're drifting too far apart anyway.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:30 PM
The List
KL with baby and friends this july! Nat and bf coming too!
Weeee~
Anyway, the countdown timer officially starts today.
Days left to my birthday : 10!
hoho.
Ok la for people who are really clueless about what to get me, and die die must get me presents, here's a simple list:
1. I don't really mind teeshirts, I prefer black/white teeshirts with nice but simple graphics. I've little red tees so I don't mind red too. Just no pink, thank you.
2. Bags will never go wrong, unless they're too small and I can't really do much with it other than a wallet, keys and cellphone. I don't fancy clutches. Neither do I fancy the working adult kind of bag. I like totes. There's one particular one I eyed on in Charles & Keith. It's army green, short strap and it's $39.90. =)
3. For the 234525th time I repeat, do not get me shoes. I'm super pantang on this.
4. I like meaningful stuff like memory-lane-kind of photobooks, cards, etc etc.
5. If you must get me food, don't get me anything too creamy.
6. I've quite enough soft toys already. There're like a million of them stuffed in a box and there's no where to keep them anymore.
7. You might wanna get me a make-up/cosmetic handbook with a make-up kit for me to play with.
8. If you must get me flowers, don't get me real flowers. I can't bear to see them wither day by day. I'm not pantang about fake flowers. =)
9. Don't get me storybooks.
10. I don't mind just a dinner. =D
11. Clothes are never too many for my wardrobe, but don't get me racerbacks/singlets. I just cleared my wardrobe off them. In case you needa know, I'm a Giordano basic S, and a Levis 26. (haha!)
12. Perfume. I don't think I fancy overpowering flowery scent. I like refreshing scent.
13.Cable Tv because Mediacorp's crapshit, really.
14. Vouchers!! Prefebably to Ikea/Kinokuniya/or any reliable and pretty apparrel outlets.
And if all else fails, CASH much preferred, thank you. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:59 AM
FINALLY.
My room's finally more or less done.
I'm just short of a CD tower and it's 100% done! =)
Thank you to:
Mummy, for sponsering my entire project.
Daddy, for assembling my table and shelf, for making sure my curtains won't fall on my head.
Fabby dear, for accompanying me throughout today, and making good friends with daddy.
I love you all. =)
So, while I'm resting my bones a little, I'm here to catch 2 eps of One Tree Hill, then hit the sack and reboot my system for work tomorrow morning.
Anyway, working brings me to meet a lot of weird and irritating people. By far, I've met a handful already and I've only worked 2 weeks. Today, some weird woman msged me claiming to have sampled my wine and wants me to be her god-daughter. Right.......tryna cheat me into buying her cosmetics? I'm not falling for it.
-
I think my patience level's very low.
And it's actually not surprising me that I'm running out of patience for you.
I don't want to explain myself, perhaps not being too close to you would make me less mad.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:14 AM
I wish time would stop right here.
Where we're happy and carefree.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:06 AM
Oh-my-God.
I am so mf-Goddamn-ass tired.
I just devoted the entire day to spending time with family, and preparing for my room revamp.
So here's how it went.
Yesterday, after Ikea with baby,
I bought:
1. A bookshelf
2. A table
3. many little decorative stuff
-which will be delivered tomorrow afternoon.
Today, mum, grandma, aunts and I went Ikea again.
Because they needed to get stuff, and I haven't completed my buys.
So I went home with :
1. Pink swivel chair
2. DIY curtains
3. lots of containers.
So total damage for mum, a couple of hundreds already.
So other than Ikea, I spent the day lunching with mum&dad, and tearing my room apart.
I painted the empty spots, emptied (almost) all the trash, tried sorting and packing my notes/rubbish neatly so I wouldn't be in such a frantic when the furniture arrives tomorrow.
Apart from all that, I assembled the chair all by myself, and made my own curtains. *beams proudly*
I can't wait for tomorrow, I can't wait to do my room up.
Although I can't really picture how it'll be like. The purchases were pretty much a risk because I didn't do proper measurements - more of estimations. So hopefully, all falls through, and I'll get my revamped room, by tomorrow night. =)
I CAN'T WAIT!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:00 AM
Yowza!I get so bored at work everyday, I do a million coffee arts.
I've tried everything that's on the video, succeeded in a few.
And for the past two days, I haven't made any sale and I'm pretty demoralized by it, but it's okay. Yesterday was because I was too sleepy I refused to approach anyone. Today.. let's blame the rain.
Anyway, I met Ru earlier. She came to pick up her pay and I drove her home. It's good seeing her, gossiping and all. Enjoy yourself in Thailand sweets!
Well.. not meeting Kate tonight.. =( But it's okay we can plan again!
So in another couple of minutes, I'm gonna pick baby up and we'll go for dinner, I suppose.
Results out on Wednesday. And I'm not feeling good about it. I don't have the best faith for the results this time round, judging from how I think I screwed every paper, and how the fucking marketing project turned out. Sigh. I just hope I don't have to repeat anything, else mum will definitely skin me alive.
Mum actually treats me pretty well. That's when she doesn't have pms/bad day/etc. She just bought me a 1GB card for my phone and she's sponsering my Ikea trip tomorrow. Besides, these days when Stelly boo's not around, I keep her company more. Talk to her more and stuff. I'd say that we're pretty much like bestfriends. =)
<3
Speaking of Stelly Boo, that little fart messaged mum the other night, and said 'mummy, I miss you'. How sweet. haha. BUT WHY I DON'T HAVE!?!?!? =(
To think I miss her already. tsk tsk.
hahaha.
Oh well, no One Tree Hill for now. Tonight tonight!
Imma addicted to it already. heh.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:30 PM
So.. we didn't get into Zouk last night because the queue was too effing long, plus, even if we entered, HOW TO ENJOY IN THAT CROWD?!
And we didn't try mos, didn't try Dblo, altho we drove past.
But it all ended up pretty good still.
Baby, Nat, Shu and I went for supper at Bukit Timah, good food.
Then fright night. tsk tsk.
Stupid Natalie talked about haunted houses, and fab being my dearest fab, DIE ALSO MUST GO TAKE A LOOK. So well done, I saw the most eerie gate in my life. Only the gate was visible actually. The house was so deep inside we can't see. But the gate itself was creepy and eerie. Just the thought of it sends shudders down my spine. >_<
Then they drove to the horse stable or something. Which was this long and winding dark and narrow road, with tunnels that look like they have no ends to it. =X
So fright night ended by 4am, and I had work this morning at ten. Tsk.
But at least today's public holiday, and I drove to work. =)
BUT BUT BUT!!!
Thanks to my aunt, who's going overseas, and leaving her car in my dad's care, our car's mine for keeps for the next 3 days! Whipeee!
Ok, back to One Tree Hill. =)
Btw, forgot to add, I found alluc.org --> a very reliable webbie to watch shows! WHAHAHA. I even found Spongebob there! zomgggggg. =)
Pictures soon!
Cookies and cream, Regi @7:28 PM
It only took one sms, and twenty minutes. =)
I texted, 'Boo I'm hungry.....'
Twenty minutes later, surprise popped by downstairs, and I had bar chor mee for supper, with my dear baby. =)
So you see, I wasn't wrong when I said I have the best boyfriend ever. =)
-
Work tomorrow morning.
Zouk tomorrow night. Maaaaambo jaaaaambo~!
Work thursday morning (HA NAH HA NAH, VESAK DAY RETAILS DON'T CLOSE CAN ANOT?!).
Work friday morning.
Ikea on saturday.
Room revamp on Sunday.
Can't wait already!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:02 AM
Ahhhhhh hot stuff.Anyway, did you know that chocolates can kill?
Funny I know, death by chocolates. HMM.
70% of the world's chocolates are produced in West Africa.
Chocolate comes from cocoa plants, but in West Africa, the cars still use leaded gas.
So when the exhaust fumes disperse in the atmostphere, and it rains, pours lead - like acid rain.
Whatever's in the atmostphere gets into the soil, gets into the cocoa plants; capilary action.
The cocoa's harvested, processed, refined, sold in the bulk, and eventually, the chocolates we eat.
So imagine if you were a candy-addict, and consume about a pound of chocolate a night, for 16 years, thetrahydrollin (or whichever way you spell it) - a chemical found in eye drops, can trigger the reaction (if you accidentally consume it), and eventually, Death by Chocolate.
AMAZING ISN'T IT!? Chocolates can kill!!!!!!!!!!!
-CSI
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:37 PM
I woke up this morning with fever, called Julianna to report sick (and she didn't sound glad about it).
I think the working world's disgusting. Really disgusting.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:25 PM
Stelly boo flew off to Shenyang this morning. Sheeks, I'm kinda missing her already.
That little fart looked so cute dragging her humongous luggage - which was at least half her height. haha.
Like I was telling Shu, Stelly and I are actually really close. Just the other night, she walked into my room and said she didn't feel like sleeping alone and wanted to bunk with me. Plus, she would be going Shenyang soon and needs to bully me before flying. -_-
Even though it sounded really nasty, but I was actually touched to hear that.
And this morning, she gave us all a hug before entering the gates. Ahhh my little sister's all grown up now.
It's always me spending the night out, spending days away from home, spending so much time outside. I never really thought about her being lonely and stuff. Well I do, but I never thought of the extent. There are times I came home early specially just so she wouldn't be too bored at home, and feel guilty when I leave house and see her all alone, in the night when my parents are out. But it never struck me once, that she'd feel empty and all.
But today, when I saw her walk solitary into the gates, go through the checkpoints alone, walked to her teacher and classmates, I realised my little baby sister grew up without me knowing.
In a way, I thought I felt like how my parents felt. A sense of pride and a little reluctant - because she's independant and all grown up. I even asked my mum if she felt like crying (because I secretly felt like it. haha).
Ahh I sound like a mother already. tsk tsk.
heh. I don't think I ever really said it for real, but I love my sister. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:37 AM
I was just researching on some stuff online earlier.. bumming around reading up.
I read something pretty interesting and motivating.. But I shan't be posting it up, confidential. haha.
I'm the most blessed girl alive because I've got the best boyfriend ever. =)
I mean it.
-
I've got a date with Kate on Friday, finally! YAY!!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:23 AM
For my birthday this year,
I only want money.
No really, I'm kidding.
For my birthday this year,
I only want good memories.
Presents aren't really important anymore. I only want good memories.
Good memories don't have to come from exquisite gifts, high priced planning etc.
Good memories come from sincerity and effort.
So even if it were just a bag of candy, I can count the love, and stay happy about it.
Really.
And this, is my birthday wish list for the year.
(Well not unless you were intending to give me an air ticket to Japan with special passes to meet up with Elly.. that, is the only expensive gift I will not refuse. =D )
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:07 AM
Always rushing.
Yes I just caught Pirates and yes it was a good show.
But no I'm not in a good mood right now so don't come bugging me.
In any case, my sister's flying off to Shenyang in a couple of hours' time and I kinda think I'll be missing that little fart pretty much. 9 days. Gosh, I never spent more than a week away from her before. I can't imagine not having anyone to disturb for the next 9 days, not having anyone to whine/complain/bitch/cry to for the next 9 days. I hope she'll be fine by herself there. Well, I know she will, she's always been strong and smart. But maybe, just not independant yet. But I know she will be.
I'm trying not to go to bed now so I won't oversleep and miss her flight.
But hell no, I'm not in a good mood seriously.
And when you're in a lousy mood, everything's shitty.
I was fine about not knowing my work schedule right up to the very fucking last minute. But now that I'm in a bad mood, I kinda feel like ringing Julianna up now and screaming the fuck out of her. FUCK IT WHY DO I HAVE TO WAIT TILL THE WEEK ITSELF BEFORE I KNOW MY SCHEDULE?!
Right I understand that she's busy with the fair, roadshows and what-have-yous. But that doesn't really give them an excuse to leave the schedules to the last fucking minute. If you wanna plan one schedule, why can't you plan all? What, I'm the last minute is it? The back-up employee is it? The one to fit into any empty slot is it?
FUCK YOU MAN. I wish I could quit. I wish my interest for the job isn't so intense. I wish my conscience would allow me to scream I QUIT in front of your stupid faces.
Really, I'm in a fucking lousy mood so stay away from me.
I mean it.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:51 PM
Quick nap before baby comes to pick me up and we'll go for... PIRATES! weehee.=)
So, feast your eyes!
Zouk with Nat.
New York New York with Jiewan and Shirley.
Study trip with Bish-retard and Panda-irritant.
My handsome boy in Hong Kong.
Spot the difference. HA.
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:42 PM
Lelong lelong~
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All I had was just one tiny shot, ok it wasn't even a shot to start with, I adjusted the intensity to mild.. And here I am, wide awake at 1.44am when I'm supposed to be up and awake by 8.15am.
So my point is, I think my company's coffee really powerful. Just one shot and I can last the entire day. Powerful. Impressive.
So here's the deal.
For all coffee lovers who already own the coffee maker, $8.90 a packet only! You can make up to 25-30 cups of coffee leh! Worth it right! $8.90 doesn't even get you more than 3 cups of Latte (which, by the way, consists only 1/4 coffee, and 3/4 milk. How cheating!)
If you don't own a coffee maker, FRET NOT! Here's the rescue!
Simply sign the deal with us for 12/24 mths, at only $108/mth, you get approximately 12 packets of coffee beans! WOW! But that's gonna be like 291 packets in 24 mths, which is insane. So, to top it all up neatly, you get to claim 40% of what you pay for, for wines! How neat!
And the best part about this deal, is that, you get the entire coffee maker FOR FREE! It's worth $1680 leh. AND YOU GET IT FREE! waaaaaa. Cool shit.
Plus, you get to keep the machine after the credit value's up.. Attractive.
So you ask, what about the wine lovers?
It works the same!
But at different values of course. $98 or $128 a mth, you get the wine cellar free, plus bottles of wine of your choice and preference, delivered right to your doorstep!
Come and let me earn the commission ok!
Occupational hazzard. tsk
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:42 AM
A lot to talk about a lot to talk about!
But no time for grandmother stories!
Point form!
1. I got my new phone today! Though not new model though. SE Z610i
2. We bought a new digicam today, the oh-so-cool Sony Cybershot T20 (the slide slide one! so cool!)
3. I almost sold a coffee package today, I hope the customer calls me back tomorrow and comes down to sign the deal. COMMISSION!!
4. Mum actually asked for Pepper Lunch today. Yeeeha
5. I'm so broke, I feel as dry as a pickle.
6. Baby's back!
7. I miss Bishan and Debbie.
8. HAVE FUN IN L.A, MY DEAREST LI!!!!
9. I'm working tomorrow morning, yawnz.
10. My study table and the cupboard above it are gone, officially! =)
PST : MEL! Sorry i'm a lousy piece of procrastinator! haha busy working busy working! Will update soonest!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:12 AM
Drink drank drunk not.
So we ended up going Zouk last night afterall.
Met Lester Kston etc there too.
Well... I'd say it'll be more enjoyable with even more people around. =)
I've like a million blisters on my feet and working today was tough cuz I had so many cups to wash and walking was a chore. =( But work was still good today, Ronald was training this new guy so I gained the advantage, extra training for me! heh.
Drank quite a bit of wine, and all on an empty stomach. Hmmmm I wonder how harmful it is. But anyway, I'm not suffering yet, so maybe it isn't all that bad afterall.
Full shift on tomorrow. I miss baby already. =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:01 PM
You know, even though I'm pretty affected and upset by what just happened, it's okay.
It won't stay to affect me any longer. It's not worth it.
At the end of the day, I know I still have baby with me and that's all that matters.
BUT HE'S OVERSEAS NOW AND OMG HE JUST SAW EDISON CHEN SHOOTING FOR SOME AD.
Anyway, I whipped up a good lunch earlier. Too bad I dont have a camera right now so no pictures! I'm waiting for Nat to come..
ooh hee baby just logged online!
bye now!
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:42 PM
Stalker
Today's work was traumatic.
I met a man who was scarier than any man I've ever met.
Ask me for details.
But I met a very charismatic person at the same time. hah!
So it sort of balances out.
Other than the fact that my heels were killing me today..
Lesson learnt : Never wear heels when I'm working at Suntec.
And once again, my day was saved because baby came to fetch me home today. =)
But! He's flying off to Hong Kong (without me!!!!) tomorrow, back on Saturday. booooohoooohooo. =(
Oh by the way, our marketing project sucked big time.
So much for the incredibly designed products. Kiss my foot. =(
I hope Julianna switches my shift on Thursday......
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:40 AM
Baby, my knight in shining armour.
Baby, my Prozac.
Baby, my comfort.
Baby, my worry.
Baby, my pain.
Baby, my love.
Thank you for always being there for me. I apologise for always failing to see.
Thank you for loving me this way.
Thank you for always being the one to save the damsel in distress.
Thank you for being the one who'd take care of me no matter what, no matter when, no matter how.
Thank you for being my stanchion, my pillar of strength.
I love you, baby.
Really do. Always have, always will.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:37 AM
Oooh so I didn't pack my room in the end.
I think mum's gonna scream at me in no time.. especially when the contractors will be here anytime this week to whack away the cupboard and take the old table away. (Think room revamp!)
Ok ok, before I go for work tomorrow! haha.
Anyway, I met up with Nat earlier at Vivo. But before we met, I met shuls since she was going there as well. We got directions from Zhenyang.. but HE GAVE US WRONG DIRECTIONS!! Zomg. Imagine me driving for more than an hour cuz we kept losing our way.
Thank God for baby!! He saved our lives! Just one easy phonecall and he directed us out of the rubble. =) My knight in shining armour! hehe. Well it really isn't the first time he's saving me.. so.. he's my knight in shining armour!!! =)
Went Nat's house to play with Banban and XiaoBai. THEY'RE SO CUTE! And they didn't stink as well. haha.
Ahhh I'm very very broke now. =(
I feel empty and unsafe. Akkkk and I bleed everytime I hit the malls... SHOPPING SPREE CONTROLLED! grrr.
oh well.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:05 AM
Shoot me, I'm a procrastinator.
Major procrastinator.
You should really see how big a mess my room is in. And everyday, I tell myself I will pack it, I will pack it.
But I never did!
In fact, I went to sleep last night telling myself I'll be packing it today since I'm not working. But.. it's already 1pm and I haven't got down to packing. I made pasta for myself though. heh.
Alright. I shall stop procrastinating.
What a senseless post. tsk
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:50 PM
Life moved on too quickly.
I kind of reached a point where I got blind to many things. I started fixing expectations and generalisations on almost everyone. I stopped caring, stopped bothering. And when I get disappointed, it became all about how my expectations were failed.
In a way, it's detrimental. To myself, and to people around me. People close to me, especially.
I keep expecting people to understand why I react this way, I keep expecting people to know.
Of course, people don't.
I know I shouldn't be fixing expectations on people, just like how I hate being done that to. I always knew that. But somehow.. I just stopped remembering it.
In life, I've had many blind spots. Phases where I literally turned blind to some stuff suddenly. Of course, I have no one to blame but myself. And I don't want to find excuses for myself because excuses are just talk. But true enough, there are times where you just stop seeing things, and walk your days with both eyes closed.
I've a long way to go before I really grow up.. both mentally and emotionally.
I guess I'm not ready yet.. but I will be..
Embrace the new you.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:40 AM
Trust
You shall be given the benefit of the doubt today.
I'm too tired to pursue it anyway.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:25 AM
fuck, bad day
Fuck, bad day.
Although work today was much, much, much better, my day was still horrid.
I FUCKING DROPPED MY PHONE INTO WATER.
OH GREAT.
MY PHONE. SPOILT.
NOW, I'M STUCK WITH LOUSY OL NOKIA8310.
I hope Nokia services my phone for free. =(
Anyway, it's 12.55am now, and I just came home from the Grasshopper concert with mum, aunt and cousins. Yes you read it right, Grasshoppers.
Old school?
So what?
They still rocked the stadium down.
In all truth, their concert was great. They brought up the hype, got 90% of the audiences up on their feet dancing, and surprisingly, they had amazing stamina.
Their songs... I knew very little. Afterall, I did grow up listening to a couple of their songs. But still, the concert was pretty entertaining. Excluding the fact that they were conversing in Canto all the time and I had trouble understanding.
I'm really sleepy now, so time to sleep.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:54 AM
Bad Habit
You really think I am a fool, don't you?
You really think I don't know you're lying, right?
-
Day one at work today was really nasty. Really really nasty.
Although I made 3 sales today, I made more than 3 blunders.
First, I'm not clear about the stupid packages.
Two, I have no idea how to use the stupid powder coffee machine.
Three, I somehow remembered the wrong price for the syrup bottles (thank God the man was very nice still).
Four, I gave Joe coffee powder when he asked for coffee beans.
Five, I knew so little about wines I didn't even dare to promote them.
Yeah, five is bad enough considering the seriousness of each one is pretty big.
Gahh.
But the people there are still very nice though. So it's slightly easier.
Then I met my aunt for lunch. She came down to support my sales and bought a bottle of wine from me. So nice! I should drop by her house to drink it sometime. =D
She told me a lot of stuff about my dad. HE USED TO BE A SPOILT BRAT! Oh man. haha. So married men usually become more matured and responsible. heh.
Then went back to Zhonghua with mum for Stelly's stupid Shenyang trip talk. Senseless talk!
But grocery shopping after that was therepeutic. We spent like 90 over bucks there. Now we don't have to worry about going hungry in the middle of the night again! yayyyyy.
I can't wait for Sunday to arrive.. my room's in a mess.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:29 PM
I'm feeling low.
Very very low.
It's a low point of disappointment mixed with disgust and pain.
Maybe sleeping will do good.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:52 PM
Not a fool anymore, jerkhead.
Nasty nasty hangover.
The initial intention yesterday night was to go clubbing at Zouk but due to unforseen circumstances, we ended up at a friend's place, drinking.
So drink, drank, drunk.
Obviously, yours truly, with very little alcohol tolerence, fell victim to even the mildest of the drinks there and I heard I got rather aggressive. =x
Natalie said I even scratched Lester's face and wanted to slap him. HMMMMM.
I actually remember everything we did, played, and what everyone said. But the funny thing is, I didn't even realise I fell asleep. I remember 5-10, I remember the endless talk about all the different whatever animals, I remember the nitty gritty, I remember Natalie blowing smoke towards me, I remember Lester's butt attracted the dogs, I remember a lot of drunk talk by those crazy people, but I just don't remember falling asleep.
So I kind of woke up with a start, and even though I had a splitting headache, Nat dragged me and we both went home.
Even though the after effects weren't exactly what I'd call fun, but I remember enjoying myself and feeling happy. So I guess, that's all that counts. =)
*
So yesterday was supposedly day 1 at work, but when shuls and I went to report for work, we were told that we could leave after 1.5 hours. I know!! WTF!! Seems like we only went there for product training yesterday..
So we loitered around town for a while, went home and I met Jiewan and Shirley in the evening for dinner. It was great seeing them again, haven't seen them in eons.
But we spent too little time together, and the service at AMK Hub New York! New York! was disgusting.
Where on earth do you get managers who tell their waitresses to clear the table and chase customers away?! Effing infuriating.
We should meet up sometime again, and longer hours!
*
So alright, after gulping down countless cups of water, I'm feeling less thirsty now.
And slowly, the headache's creeping away..
Good!
BISHIRICHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (don't laugh ah) I miss you two already. =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:58 AM
Tonight..
Someday, I might come to regret this.
But right now, it's the best thing to do.
And all I can say to you, is that I'm sorry.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:57 AM
Spidey
So, today's tanning was cancelled cuz of the pouring/disappointing rain. But nonetheless, because the bestfriend and I were so in love, we met up! And then we went to look for Ru at her booth, then hung out for a while.Then it was Spiderman3 with fab, and sorry dear! I was late.. again! haha.
The show was overall okay... but the middle part got a little draggy and I actually couldn't wait to get out of the theatre. haha. Besides, Peter Parker's really ugly. The only saving grace about the show's Harry. SO CUTE! =)
Oh, and I bumped into Kate! hahaha. And a Mr-you-know-who-shortie. hahaha! =p It was good seeing you again, meet up!
Work starts tomorrow, hope all goes well. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:29 AM
A million miles away
For the first time in so long, I'm finally logging online in the afternoon. Reason being, my modem's down somehow, and the wireless I'm tapping into usually only works in the night. WOW I'M HERE NOW!! Anyhow, Singnet Broadband sucks la. I'm so grateful mum cancelled contract and we're waiting for the cable connection to come in. =)
Just the other day, I thought of you. And at least a million scenarios, what-ifs, and reasoning came through. It's been so long since I made the move and moved away from you. And because of that, so much has changed since.
I no longer want to be the kind of friend I used to be. I guess, in a way, I was just tired of having to reflect my life, lifestyles and routines to someone else. And having to live through countless blames, accusations, and expectations that won't ever seem to end. Of course, I'm no longer pointing fingers and I'm no longer mad. But just, afraid.
I realised, that ever since then, I decided to live my own life, did my own stuff, not having the need to report anything to anyone. And that's the way I'm liking it. I didn't have to worry about anything, or worry about needing to report my life to someone else other than my parents and partner. But concurrently, I became afraid to make new close friends.
Somehow, the idea of having a new close friend meant that I had to start all over, get to know a new someone again, and adapt to his/her characteristics. And secretly, I'm afraid to meet someone just like you. I didn't want to get too close to anyone new; I didn't want the familiarity of how you used to be like to come back again.
Under the covers, there were even occassions where I dreamt of how things used to be, and woke up feeling nasty. A little nostalgic, because afterall, we used to be the best of friends. But a little relieved, because I no longer feel the weight on my shoulders.
But I won't deny still feeling sore, about the questions I never asked you. About the incidents where we fought, and I never managed to seek an answer. Sometimes, even now, I still feel very much how I used to feel - unjust.
But it's okay now, everything's over. And the occassional smses, phonecalls and even lunch will suffice. I just hope, no one new would be the same.
*
Tanning was cancelled today because of the sucky wet weather.. =( Very sad.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:33 PM
God
I just watched this video from Ruth, The Interview With God.
The last part was very touching..
When asked if He had anything else he wanted to let his children (us) know, God smiled and said..
"Just know that I'll be here."
"Always."
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:14 AM
exhaustion
"The days crept by so fast... so fast that I don't have time to breathe."
Proper blogging now. Before I turn in, earlier tonight.
So for the record, I went for a jog today. And it lasted only 10 mins because it started to rain. So yea, I was a little drenched. But oh well. It's been ages since I last jogged, and honestly, I can't run much now. But I'll keep the run going! (I'll try to. Otherwise fab'll mock me)
There's this sort of emptiness inside.. there seem to be something missing.. short of something.. but.. I don't know what it really is. Is it only psychological, or is it truly something missing?
I recognise this feeling. It comes only too familiar. And it's not gonna be good in the long run because it'll turn into a habitual cycle. Sometime I'll get used to and be only too in touch with it. And before I know it, I'll turn into an emotional freak.
Perhaps busy days will keep me away from it. And anyway, the next two days will be occupied.
So, hell with it.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:37 PM
Tanning with shuls tomorrow!
I CANNOT WAIT!
And hopefully, all goes well and then it'll be Spiderman 3 with fab at night!
To hell with lack of sleep, lack of rest!
Post exam days are supposed to be fun, anyway!
And I cannot wait for wednesday!
First day at work (10 - 3pm) and dinner with Jiewan!
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:25 PM
Went Chinatown with retard today, meaning to say, LE LITTLE WILL BE UPDATING SOON! Stay tuned ok!! Esp Mel! haha.You know seriously, men going through andropause are extremely unfathomable and very unreasonable. I bet my sister agrees. Pfffft.
So anyway, I hope mum decides that going Hong Kong when stella's in Shenyang'd be a good idea. Then, I shall be off for a trip! yayyy.
Alright continue later!
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:29 PM
How many times, how many lies
Happy Mothers' Day, niang!
I felt rather bad when I had to break the news to my aunt earlier that I won't be teaching Fiona anymore. But well, I refuse to teach someone who doesn't want to help herself. So what's got to be done, has to be done. So there, I've one less tuition assignment now..
I'm still feeling really tired. And by this time, I'm safe to say, I'm fucking tired. I haven't had a good sleep in weeks!!! Oh my god, feel my pain.
But, I bought a new top today. So... as the saying goes... when the going get tough, the tough goes shopping! Wheeeheee. Albeit feeling very, very broke. =X
ANYWAY!!
I'll be meeting Chen Laoshi at NYNY! tomorrow! Good!
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:11 PM
The Open Door
Maybe because I'm really tired. Physically tired.
I haven't had a good rest in days, probably even weeks. Though I now have the luxury of time to sleep, I still don't.
Maybe it's the late night habits, maybe it's just the running thoughts that never seem to end, maybe it's the stress about the depleting bank account, or maybe.. it's something else.
And on top of that, I haven't had the opportunity to sleep in yet. I've been waking up early the past two days for the job interview (and I got it, by the way. Thanks to dearest Yinru =)) , and for the product training (which is fucking interesting. I'm now an amateur barister! ).
So maybe because I've really been tired, lack of sleep, and a very tensed up body, I haven't been in the best of moods. Not really a very good thing after exams, huh.
Just the other night, I almost hyperventilated in my sleep.
I don't know what's wrong with me..
When night falls, time crawls past so painfully.
I'm sorry honey. I'm sorry to make you go through these with me.
I know I sounded like a bitch on the phone. And I know I wasn't the best company.
I'm sorry honey.
I don't know what's wrong.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:15 AM
And...
AND..
I finally met shuls today. We were supposed to catch 200 Pound Beauty at my place, but my laptop had some problems with the player and so we ended up just clearing my wardrobe and deciding on what I should wear tomorrow.
But it was good, because now that I don't have to worry about lesser time for studying, chill-outs are relaxing and easy. Like how it should be.
AND..
Because each time I mention, I get a free meal... I'm gonna mention JUNE JI again!
JUNE JI! JUNE JI! JUNE JI! JUNE JI!
June ji's very nice because even though I haven't talked to him in eons, he still wished me luck for my last paper, knowing that I'm feeling extremely sore about the whole world having fun, and me, stuck studying.
So here you go, june ji!!
FREE MEAL, HERE I COME!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:38 AM
Sweet liberty
The exams ended officially today.
Post-exam blues stepped in right after, I screwed the last paper big time.
The last time I remembered screwing a paper this badly was LEP paper during A level prelims.
I embraced the start of freedom with a bad note.. and it didn't help much when I realised I lost my spectacles. But of course, today wasn't the worst day afterall. I had the best company I could ask for after exams - debbie and Bishan.
We went on a field trip today! We went scouting for Haji Lane, but ended up in Arab Street first. And because we were starving, we had lunch in this jacuzzi-internet cafe thing. $14.50 for a set lunch that had chicken chop half the size of that in our school's canteen, not very satisfying. But it tasted different, and the uncle was very nice, so, 7 out of 10 stars!
So we loitered around the area under the blazing sun, and we ended up in Haji Lane - almost by mistake. haha! We behaved like tourists and took a total of 193 photos today. haha! We even stopped by an alley to take photos. -_- haha. Then.. we went Parco and that's where I got my Outfitter Girls bag - sponsered by mother!, and where we took neoprints. hehe.
But it's weird how, after we went seperate ways, my mood plumented to a pit low, and somehow, I became very blue.
Even though I've been counting down, awaiting today to arrive, the moment it came, I just can't seem to settle yet. It's too adrupt, I say. For the past few days, I refused to think about post exam activities for the fear of distracting myself too much, so now that it's here, I'm pretty caught aback actually.
Kelvin - the excel man says:
and i deduce that because of this whole smorgasmbord of things that went wrong, you were swung both sides of your heart and now u're just stuck in the middle and feeling blue
and i deduce that because of this whole smorgasmbord of things that went wrong, you were swung both sides of your heart and now u're just stuck in the middle and feeling blue
I feel exhausted suddenly. Like all of a sudden, there's so much for me to finish.
I've got a lot of sleep to catch up on, I've got a lot of money I need to earn (plus, tuition paused officially today because my kid's exams are over too), I've got a lot of dust to sweep, I've got a lot of papers to burn, I've got a lot of stuff to clear/pack...... the list doesn't end here.
I'm very very tired. Tired as in, physically tired. But I can't sleep. Bish said it's because we're accustomed to late nights. I agree. But in this case, how am I to catch up on my sleep? I've a job interview scheduled at ten in the morning.
I don't know, maybe I really need sleep. And by that, I mean a lot a lot of sleep.
Or perhaps, I'm just really disturbed by the fact that I lost my glasses. I didn't even dare to drive far today. And that means, if it's not in the Lost & Found in school, I'll have to fork out money to buy. Something which I'm very short of right now. Sigh.
I hope it goes away after I sleep on it.. I don't need another bad day.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:08 AM
Like bees to honey
Hey yo.
I think I screwed marketing paper badly today.
I finished paper half and hour (after checking) before time, and I thought I had sufficient content. 10 marks essays, a page odd would suffice, no?
So the first person I communicated with, Retard, said she didn't have time to finish the paper.
O-k-a-y..
Nat said she was struggling to finish the paper. O-K-A-Y..
Lester said he wrote so much and was struggling through too. OKAYYYYYY..
Some people didn't even finish the paper, wrote 3 fucking pages for one question.
OH GREAT.
That aside, during the last few slacky minutes of the paper today, I realised I missed boo. That, even though I just saw him on Saturday, it felt like I haven't seen him in a week. Weird. So I told him that, and guess what the piece of sugar did?
No prizes for getting it right! hehehe.
He knocked off early, popped by my house with 2 pieces of bread for me! Bread because I get hungry studying in the night! How sweeeeet. ^_^
Ahhh.. sweet bliss. =)
Regina says:
lotsa love !
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love ya too
Two more days two more days! I can do it!!!!!!!!! =( gahhhh.
Then, it'll be partying, shopping, enjoying, room-revamping, EATING, swimming, running, cycling, tanning, baking, cooking, earning money, spending money, movies, csi, oc, ugly betty, prison break, elly, book burning.........
Sounds exciting already! =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:55 PM
I've a billion pictures to upload!! But I'm battling against time right now, so all till after the exams!
Just know that more than half the pictures are retardly taken with Bish! haha.
So anyway, the past few days' been hecticly cramming marketing principles into my very exhausted lil brain, busy worrying I cannot finish in time (and as I'm typing, I'm still worrying).
And my internet modem's very down, and the only usable connection for me to tap into is only available in the middle of the nights and during weekends (that's when I guess the user's on the comp as well.). So my life currently, very sad. No cable, no internet, no life.
But, I bought myself a dress, a new pair of havianahs slim, received my shorts from minzy (VERY NICE!), received the tee I ordered one month ago.
So even though I haven't had a shopping spree like my baby, I'm still happy. =)
On the side note, the present I ordered for jiewan (one and a half month ago) is still not here. DAMNIT. I only hope the person's not cheating my money otherwise I'll hunt her down and eat her alive.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:23 AM
La Verite
I graze my fingers along the cracks of my mistakes. How my method of loving you went wrong, and how it saddened me to realise it went wrong.Sometimes when I think about it, I know you're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
I guess agitated people really sprout the worst and most irrational stuff, and that was what I did.
But when rationality and sense seeps through, I know for sure, you're the best that I'll ever have. And I'm glad I have you.
Because at the end of the day, I know you'll be the one to stand by me through all the odds, stick with me even if the world turns against me, take me out for a spin/food when I'm upset/hungry, and more importantly, love me even when no one does.
There have been instances where I wish I could jump off the building when I'm arguing with my mother, but the thought of leaving you brings me back. The thought of being seperated from you for good scares me. And I cry, not because I'm frustrated at the argument, but because my heart twinged so much that it hurt.
"There will always be a name that leads your life, one that your existence revolves around; one that follows suit with every breath you make."
Your name, is mine.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:16 AM
Will you still love me, tomorrow?
I had just about one of the worst days this week.I woke up with a splitting headache that wouldn't go off even after eating - I thought it was because I was hungry. Apparently not.
It only went off after panadol. So yea, panadol's the best afterall.
No point in me dwelling on how the day went wrong again, apart from the fact that I missed out a lot on studying today since I was most of the time slouching and pouting in bed trying to get the bloody goddamned headache off me for good.
But dinner was good. I finally had dinner with shuls. We went chomps for dinner, had a spread! (Well, a spread for the poor people. NO STINGRAY!! ) And went hunting for a particular house numbered 4 with a Chevrolet parked inside. *tsk tsk* haha. And finally to Giant Hypermart and home.
Daddy was really sweet, he offered to come downstairs to pick me up because he saw a drunkard earlier. But he was gone by the time I came home, so yea. But still, very sweet hor?!
Maybe you really need a different way of loving you. Perhaps my way of loving you isn't the rightest way. But I did my best to love you the way I knew how to. But I guess, it was too much.
At the end of the day, it repulsed, and we're back at square one again.
I'm sorry to have said things I shouldn't have.
"people say the most irrational things when they're agitated"
I don't want no more quarrels. I don't want no more frustrations.
But I'm glad we're okay again. Thank you for seeing us in the long term, 20, 30 years down the road. I'll try to make that happen.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:39 PM
the soul bleeds
So I guess it's my fault again.
To force you to do things you don't like.
And what do you not like?
You do not like telling the world.
Ok, I'll handle this.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:57 PM
when night falls...
Ahh now, absolute comfort in blogging. =)
Anyway, I had a really bad evening, but I think I should be fine already.
My eyes are too tired to carry on anyway.
And so, I'm starving now, and I wish I had a plate of hokkien mee, bbq chicken wings and stingray right in front of me.
*edit
Baby's coming, baby's coming! to bring me out for supper!!!! yay!
Ok, more blogging when I'm stuffed with food!
Good-bye for now!
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:59 PM
I promise this will be the last change!!!!! If there's another change, I will delete blog! hahaha
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:23 PM
Livejournal beckons
Hello people,
I've shifted to http://aaphrodite.livejournal.com .
Mostly Friends Only, so create a livejournal account and add me if you want to read the privates!
I'm sorry about it, blame Huiyi for tempting me if you want! :P
Goodbye now!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:28 AM
Let the music set you free
I just closed a transaction for Le Little Shop with this customer, Timothy.
Apparently, there were 3 interested parties in one of my items, all at the same time. ^_^
So he emailed me,
Hi!
I would like to order autumn whispers for my gf..I know she really likes it and i was wondering if it was still possible for me to get it from you cos i've noticed that there was someone else posting a comment in the tagboard that she was interested in that necklace. It's really quite important for me if i was able to get that. i can offer a higher price if its ok with you! just name the price. do contact me at ******** or reply to this email! Your help is greatly appreciated. Thanks!
Timothy
So based on business ethics, I had to run a 'fastest fingers first' via sms/email with all the parties, even though I secretly wish this guy would win cuz he's so goddamned sweet. haha.
In the end, he won (honest!). He was the first to text me back with a 'ME!!!' and emailed at the same time to confirm the bid. haha. He paid $2 more than what was posted, and did the money transfer almost immediately.
During the 'results', I text him a wrong message, and I said he didn't win the bid. Pity I deleted the message.. else there'd be proof to how disappointed he sounded immediately, and perked up right on when I said I text him a wrong message. haha!
Ahhhh the main purpose of this entry is to show really, that there are very very sweet boyfriends out there. hahaha.
No I'm not saying Fabbydear's not sweet to me. haha. Just that this customer of mine's really the max, I feel.
In any case, I'm happy for Le Little Shop! =)
pst: but this is *ahem*, still an obvious hint thrown to my dearest fabby dear. =) teeheehee
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:53 AM
Masquerade
Maybe, this is just the part of you I never understood, and never saw.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:07 AM
Think of Me
...and it was your indirectness that hurt me most.
It wasn't about who you went with for ramen.
It was about you showing unwillingness to come clean.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:10 AM
Music of the Night
The musical was awesome!
It started off with a good bang, and I love the opening best.
Seriously, I'd trade my lousy sound system in my laptop for all that quality. It was sucha bang! Well... though it was pretty cold in there, it didn't really affect the watch afterall. It was that much of a good watch. heh.
And, it made me well up in tears in the end. So I rate it 6 out of 5 stars. hahaha! (no there's nothing wrong with my math!)
Totally worth every cent we paid, and more!
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:58 PM
Angel of Music, Devil of Crime
Maybe I should stop reading altogether.
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:48 PM
soft slumber
There're many articles Yisheng wrote, but this is the very one I like best.
"was watching charlie and the chocolate factory on cable tv earlier in the afternoon. realised that movie was peppered with dark elements and terrifying connotations permeated the show entirely. could you imagine that shock rocker marilyn manson was actually asked to play the role of willy wonka in the movie? perhaps if you watch it with an innocent and naive fixation, your mind untintured and tainted by hidden covert darker undertones you might have found the movie pretty much a childs fantasy movie.
while preparing for my gothic paper this year, i learnt that stories such as 'the little red riding hood', 'snow white' and 'alice in wonderland' had deeper darker gothic origins and underlying messages, a deck scarier and more intensely terrifying in its orignal version that of coz, the ever warmly received walt disney version kids are familiar with.
abstracting something from wikipedia,
These early variations of the tale differ from the currently known version in several ways. The antagonist is not always a wolf, but sometimes an ogre or a ‘bzou’ (werewolf), making these tales relevant to the werewolf-trials (similar to witch trials) of the time. The wolf usually leaves the grandmother’s blood and meat for the girl to eat, who then unwittingly cannibalises her own grandmother. Also, once the girl is in bed with the wolf she sees through his disguise and tries to escape, complaining to her ‘grandmother’ that she needs to defecate and would not wish to do so in the bed. The wolf reluctantly lets her go, tied to a piece of string so she does not get away. However, the girl slips the string over something else and gets away.
in short, my purpose of sharing this with you guys, is to bring across the message that fairy tales never exist in real life. even their true nature and meanings have to twisted and adapted to appeal to our childish delights and sense. is it not unnerving to learn that perhaps all that you once believed in is not only just a farce, but actually more insidious and sinister in its nature, which you were unknowingly exposed to at a young age, only to realise its nature upon maturity.what does this have to say about the nature of life, the things you may cherish, and whatever you love and equate your happiness to.
food for thought. heh
yisheng "
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:16 AM
The voice mail
It should be wrong of me.
It is an accusation.
Yet I can't help but detest letting the 10 times tone dial, and get transferred to the voicemail.
The voicemail with the song I secretly am sensitive to.
Should the day come, that I'm about to die, that I need someone to get me out of the rubble,
I suppose it won't be you. For you're always away from your phone, whichever reason it may be.
Computer games it was, car-search it was, watching tv it was, downloading it was, and tonight, what that may have happened domestically it is.
Should you check the log, I'd be registered firmly under the missed, as a regular. And not much of the received.
Day in, day out.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:59 PM
four, tres, two, uno
You know, like what they always say, there're always representative songs in each phase of our lives.
Is there just any one song that reminds you of any one phase you don't wish to think about? Maybe it's too upsetting a phase, maybe it's too heartbreaking a phase. Or maybe it's too good a phase, that you don't want to think about it because you know it's not gonna happen a second time again kind of phase.
Well, phases like all of that, I don't really want to listen to any representative songs.. even though I love those songs.
But sadly, the radio always happens to play those songs. Over and over again.
How depressing.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:18 PM
Yohoho and a bottle of rum
''Now talking's just a waste of breath, and living's just a waste of death."
It seems like I'm always causing a lot of misunderstandings with my entries.
Alright, if it's you I'm speaking about, I'll let you know personally (in the case of the previous few entries). If it isn't, please don't let your creativity run wild and assume it is.
Point made.
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Yoho.
I travelled (all the way) to school today to study with Nat, snacked more than I studied, and then, left for Ti Amo in the heavy rain. Dinner with Tricia and Yinsan. Like finally I'm seeing them. =) Oh, and I got a little souvenior from China from Yinsan! hoho =)
Anyway, sister just came into my room, ransacked my pencil case, and said, "why are you so cartoony these days? Hello Kitty.. Mickey.. Pluto.. Eeyore.. no childhood ah?"
And I say, it's extended childhood. =)
Anyway, I can't wait for Phantom of the Opera tomorrow (!!) with baby. =) It's gonna be good with a cherry right on the top because our cheapo seats got upgraded for free due to technical error. haha! So we're gonna get a absolutely clear view when we paid for the cheapest seats. heh!
I can't wait for the exams to come and go. I've got so many people I haven't met, including Jiewan, whom I owe a trillion apologies to, for I haven't celebrated her birthday with her and her present's rotting away. =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:50 PM
Reciprocacy
Because my Stupid friend, Bishan, dedicated an oh-so-sweet post to me, I shall do the same, minus the stupid pictures of today first. heh!
I have a stupid friend, who attained nirvana in the realms of the stupid people. Her name is Bishan.
She..
Sniffs her jacket sleeves
Draws stupid faces and thinks they're very nice
draws giraffes that look more like cows
she eats like a pig but she looks malnutritioned
has curtain fringe (hohoho)
always bullies me (boing boing boing)
thinks she can be cuter by wearing a pair of mushroom slippers at home
buys shorts, but only wears them at home (waste money)
bugs a poor panda with countless senseless questions (teeheehee)
loves to finish our tomatoes
is always sleepy
pouts when she watches Makan Places Lost & Found when she's hungry
calls our lecturer Beanie when it's actually Bean (I told you she likes to act cute)
Always buys furry things and gives them names like maomao
There's actually more.. but I shall show mercy right up till here.
For the lack of newer and stupider pictures, there, my friend - who is even afraid of correction liquid.
now, good night!
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:44 PM
Basically, I'm just not someone easily satisfied, come emotional terms.
In other words, I'm probably just the average jealousy-prone ass, sensitive monster, and petty freak.
It's sad but I'm serious and admitting up to this with no pun intended, no sarcasm induced, and not an ounce of offence meant.
In a way, it's about how things develop over time, how thing fold over one another, double fold again, and maybe, triple fold and more. It's about the rejections, it's about the distances, and it's about my immaturity.
I know, and I recognise, but I never did a shit other than folding over it again, and overlooking it as far as I possibly can.
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Studied at the airport with My Retarded Stupid (attained Nirvana) friend, Bishirich today. haha details later when we've finally collated all our photos. hahaha.
Dinner with baby, then we went shopping at Ikea and Giant Hypermart, which 99% resembles Malaysia. hahaha.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:50 PM
Friends Forever
I think I'm losing hold.
Or maybe, I've lost the grip long ago, but I wanted to cling on.
Probably, you prefer the wider horizons out there and the constant fun beckoning you.
Maybe it's only habitual that I'm still referring you as _.
Truth is, there's someone, or maybe many someones, there always, to replace me.
It was just never only me.
It's okay, I'll manage it as usual.
I'm fine, as usual.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:38 AM
So yesterday
I haven't been exactly in the best of moods since last night.
But well, as usual, sleep over it, and hope to wake up fine all over again.
Somehow, deep thinking's always been my hobby. Rather, it's always been what I do best.
Deep thinking not in the sense of structural kind of thought. More of the emotional battle kind.
Whichever way it is, it's definitely not helping in constructing a bright and sunny everyday for me.
Perhaps as we age, friendships tend to wither. People tend to diverge into different lanes, different walks. Meet different people, find better companies. And perhaps in this course, forget all about ol' times, forget all about yesterdays. But it's only in human nature, or so I've come to accept.
Yet, all I've accepted, is the fact. And not what the fact would bring.
Still, I've decided there's nothing much I can do about it no more. Other than sit by, and pretend I'm fine about it. And during this time, find my very own new lanes and walks.
Because at the end of the day, no one will bother about how you'll always sit by, and wait for ol' friends to make a U-turn, or how you'll always pinch on the inside about how they forget.
What people only remember, and etch into their skin, is of how you abandon/hurt them.
So why not make a note in their lives since they've made theirs in yours?
Because karma spins around.
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I met Li for dinner after class today, and were supposed to go for kbox. But turns out, there was no promotional packages going on, and the receptionist was a freaking chao ah lian, so why patronise right? We packed off, went to get the car (after a long story), and went to look for Ru. Had round 2 of dinner at Bukit Timah and went home.
Oh, daddy got a fine today. For cheating on carpark coupons. He parked close to 8pm, so he indicated 8.15pm on the coupon (15 min cheating, as usual). In the end, the wardens were doing their rounds at 8pm (omg how very unlucky), and hence, daddy got fined under Rule 11. haha. That's $30 gone~
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Go back to yesterdays, and wish for time to stop.
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:19 AM
The Poet speaks
Oh so daunting night do not tear me apart.
My heart palpitrates and my hand trembles.
A shadow tries to get me and confusion eats my sanity.
Thou promised shephard tend me into your flock so that her presence leave me easy.
Shifty figures break me from the relieve of dawn.
Lay down, lay down.
My screams are hollow as meself thoughts are sorrow.
Impertinent to my horror,
the night is endearing, and so are the seditious voices in my head.
Where are thou heading?
Would the good shepard call on me. . .
The unknown feeling seizes thy heart by a gallow.
Hush hush, my frantic soul,
But care not to cushion my plunge with despair,
for only revelations in private countenance begets a straight jacket for the terrified.
Who could explain the undercurrent stirring deeper
only to move a rapid lake towards the dead sea.
I am fraught beyond the pale of imagination for imagination leaves me no clue.
Blessed are the nights to be one with the world.
In dreams of sleep and sleep void of dreams,
the latter is unattainable.
Young lamb kept shut in gilded cage,
twin years of the trial of lull,
fear not the door when reopened to thee,
for then thine heart'll be bowed.
I wrestle, grope in the black of night.
Who can rescue?
Or, who would?
Not this crucible, no!
Am I alone?
I can't silence this song in my head- it's mockery to my sorrow.
Or the very distant hope of rescue.
Rescue?
Perhaps. Perhaps...
Emphathy?
"When divinity was mortalised,
Divinity... Emphatised."
Scars?
You struggled?
- Written : Yisheng
Amazing. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:52 AM
Run along, sing a song for me
Wrong timing. Wrong everything.
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Studying officially begun today, after the end of a long haul of tests and projects. It's a little late to start now, considering the number of lectures I actually missed. But oh well, better to start now than to procrastinate.
Although Bish and I didn't exactly study as much as we should today, it was a good start luh huh. At least I earned myself many giraffes to wish me luck for the exams and a map of a zoo (which I'll post up soon).
Tonight shall end early, before I regret it.
Tranquil night, lull me to sleep.
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Cookies and cream, Regi @12:24 AM
Even when the skies fall, I'll stand tall
Sometimes I wish I had a gun, then I would shoot all the goddamned unreasonable cars down.
BANG BANG BANG!!!!!!!!
Bloody cars.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:46 AM
2 years 4 months, and counting.
Amazing.J'taime~!
I was just up reading a random stranger's blog, and she was doing the calculations of all the relationships she's been through.
It's strange how none of them ever lasted past a year.
So is that how vulnerable love is?
If they never wanted it to last, why bother starting?
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:10 AM
1 month
Ahhhhhhh satisfied.
It's a satisfying day although I'm rather.. tired.
Nat dragged me outta lecture at like what, 12nn (and you said you're a good influence! haha) and we went Chinatown shopping. hehe. Chinatown's got like lots of hidden treasures!!!!! I didn't want to spend a cent there initially, but I ended up getting myself a pair of Eeyore bathroom slippers (cuter than your mushroom, pork lard!), a ruler, 2 mousepads( one for baby one for myself), a pair of ear studs, and materials for my pretty belt.
And, my dear Nat got herself so much materials for her cattienatshop, and for that, I get a free pair of cute ear studs for showing her the way. hehe! yayyy. Oh and she gave me a tshirt today. How sweet. =)
I went for supper with baby just now. But surprisingly I'm still feeling hungry. =( Must be the chilli. Chilli always makes me feel hungry. heh.
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I live in a house with a dad going through andropause, mum in the introductory stages of menopause, sister in the teen-transition period.
Serious miscommunication and frustration going on every now and then.
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Exams are coming, time to hit the booksssssssssss
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:52 AM
LE LITTLE SHOP HAS UPDATED, EVERYBODY!
http://le-littleshop.blogspot.com
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:42 AM
I can't get to sleep
So because I can't get to sleep, I decided to just post up these pictures. haha.
Here we go..
Ru came to school to get some info for application and I was her guide! heh.
Nat with D-chef.
Me with the lard.
The lard and the cunning wolf.
That's what I really love doing. =)
We were trying to look as if we were hugging her you see.
Bliss in thy arms!
Haha so cute~
After a day of shopping with Nat, I met baby. =)
My goofy friend, Natalie.
We were pretending to be busy so debbie could take some artistic pictures. haha!
Look at her trying to act sexy! haha
See, evidence that I love Debbie.
And we went shopping after that. hehe! Cookies and cream, Regi @12:35 AM
You were in it
Why is it that everytime people say 'drink', they only mean booze?
I don't understand, really.
Drinking literally means consuming liquid, innit? So why do they only classify booze as a liquid? What about soft drinks, juices and just plain water?
The asshole that invented that must be damn selfish. He must have been a fucking alcoholic.
For innocent (hehehe) girls like me (double hehehe), who do not consume alcohol, drinking seriously would only stretch furthest to coffee (I hate coffee, by the way). So everytime someone tells me 'let's go for a drink', I always ask them, can I not have alcohol? And they always (well, mostly) return a standard reply. "Then go drinking for what?"
Goodness, can't you understand drinking doesn't only encompass alcohol???
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:41 PM
I had a dream
It's finally all over!
OMGOMG I still can't believe it. All the projects have ended today.
For the past few days, it was a mad rush.
I didn't even enjoy my weekends.. sigh. Well, it's okay! All for the project. =)
My Saturday was spent with Natalie mainly. The rest of the team were at my place too. hahaha. And stupid Bishirich's designing so good, I'm sure to hire her as my graphic's designer in future. haha! So yea, Nat and I were doing for such a long period, time passed and we didn't realise. haha. We only had dinner at like, 10.30pm.
And, my Sunday wasn't spared too. I spent the whole day compiling the stuff and labelling the appendices etc. haha. Thank goodness baby came over to keep me company, else I'd have pulled my hair and jumped over the building. LOL.
Today, we spent almost half the day in school, and $12.50 each, before we finally handed in our proposal and Appendix book. Seems like everyone was rushing the last minutes for their project, the queues for printing, binding were all so freaking long.
Thinking about it now, I realised I'm actually quite okay with handling stress. hahaha. At least I didn't sink into any form of depression while compiling the very confusing last minutes, nor did I start typing nonsense for the Appendix. hehehe. Ok! I'm rather proud of it.=)
I've actually got lots to update and lots of pictures to post. hehe. But I'll leave it all for later. Meanwhile, I shall shove my ass off to taking pictures for Le Little Shop and update it before Marianne (a customer) realises I haven't updated. hehehe. She's like a damn sweet girl. =D
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:07 PM
Happyness
For all the years we are together,
for all the times we had together,
for everything we've enjoyed,
you'll always be my love.
For you, I will.
Happy 28th, baby darling.
I love you! <3
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When I watched Just Follow Law with mum the other time, it didn't come across to me that the blogsite the old woman talked about, was real. I thought it was just gimmick.
Tonight, upon confirmation by Tricia, I realised that http://laozhabor.blogspot.com is concrete and real! zomggggg. She's so cute la. So hip and modern for her age. haha. But well like nat says, let's just take this with a pinch of salt. haha. For all you know, it might only be her god-son updating it for her. Hmmm. Food for thought.
Alright, time for bed!
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:10 AM
Hits and Misses
I finally met up with Tsechiew today. haha. It was good, we had dinner and we shopped like hell alot. haha. Everytime I'm out with her, she brings me to the tip of the iceberg places like LV, Gucci, Chanel. hoho. It's good experience really. And that crazy woman has a $300 tiny purse from LV. -_-hehe. Anyway we took pictures! New phone resolution not bad aye. lol.
Ah yes Bishirich had the honour of taking the first picture with me today, but I shall not post it up lest she accuses me of defaming her again!! (because she always looks dumb. haha!)
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Today, Tsechiew was telling me about the regrets about jc life. Well... I guess we both harbour the same thought. Never to look back upon that life. Really, what was I doing that two years? Wasting my time away, wasted my chance.
It's too late for regrets.. but there's always space for a lesson learnt. So.. I'd better pull my socks up now, and fast.
But meanwhile, let me enjoy this weekend away.
Date with Natalie tomorrow and Saturday! Good!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:41 AM
Understanding
Goodbye E900, Hello Nokia6300.
Goodbye touch-screen, slide-ups, black and sleek.
Hello candybar, louder ringtones, silver casing.
I don't feel as much for E900 because:
1. The ringtones are exasperatingly soft and vibration doesn't work along with it.
2. Touch screen can really be a hastle even though I've gotten used to that fact.
3. SMS memory's always full.
I liked the E900 because:
1. It looked goddamn good.
2. The colour screen was colourful enough
3. Fun frames for taking pictures
Fair and square, but no space for regrets.
Now on to 6300.
Top Reason Why I decided to move on to this:
Louder ringtones that'll incorporate the vibrations together
I've a burning throat and a runny nose. And my nurse went to sleep like.. half an hour ago. gahhh
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:11 AM
Revenge is on the cards.
What if you know that someone lied to you, what would you do?
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An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.
Or so they say.
I just hope, you feel the same way too.
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Fuck it I failed MAB1. Credit only for MP. But HD for MCE.
What's the use man. I'm so gonna flunk my test 2 for MAB as well so hallelujah.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:00 PM
two segments
Segment One of today:
Well, yea, I made it to class, had project with Nat and before that, waited a whole long while before she finally finished her hmt project meeting. And meanwhile, I witnessed a series of project team politics. Whoa scary. Thank God our group ain't like that. Or maybe it's because we're not meeting enough for politics to happen? hahaha. Whichever it is, thank God we're not like that man.
While I honestly don't mind taking public transport (afterall, I took it for 19years), there are really occasions where I wish I didn't have to. Take yesterday for instance. I boarded a non air-con 74. And along Lornie Road, it was almost speeding, and there was grass trimming going on at the road shoulder. Goodness, I swear I was damn afraid a blade of grass would find its way into the bus and onto my face! So I covered my eyes, preventing myself from becoming blind. Then I realised, what if it hits my face?! So I covered my face. Then I though again, INJURE MY HAND HOW?!
Wa lau. It was terrible. But luckily nothing happened la. haha.
And today. I didn't have lunch, and we worked till about 5plus. Took the bus home and almost died on the way .=( I was so sick, I felt like puking all over the place. And the worst thing was, this blooooody irritating kid behind me was busy throwing tantrums, kicking the seat and screaming. I swear I could have kicked some ass in there. I kept hinting his mum that I'm freaking irritated, but noooooo her son was her prince. She didn't stop him. So I changed seats.
Wasn't the hint obvious enough already? The kid didn't stop! *faints*
In addition, one of the worst things to happen when you're on public transport, is bad air.
No air con, doesn't matter. It's worse when people start farting all over, or even airing their pungent armpits above everyone's heads. I hate that I tell you. >_<
So that's the price to pay for not being able to own a car.
Dear God, won't you pleaseeeeeeee get me a car??? A simple one will do.. (eh but i don't want manual car already!)
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Segment two of the day.
Part1:
Try driving while you're half frustrated and half creative (pun intended). Oh, don't forget to top up with losing your way.
So at times like these, I crave for speed. But each time I depress the accelerator hard, I see a sign that tells me Speed Camera Ahead. Great. Brake.
Then I depress again, slow car in front of me. Great. Brake.
And how do you concentrate on the roads when all you're thinking of, are the various possibilities of what could be happening? How do you focus on the directions when all that's running through your mind, are repeated questions?
"Why?"
"What's going on?"
"Am I right to assume?"
At the end of the day, no answers will be given. Rather, you don't know if the answers are real. But what you can do, is let the benefit of doubt run through.
So it does, and you try to shake it to the back of your mind.
But one day, it'll be back to haunt you. And when the time comes, there'll be no escape. Make it, or break it.
Part2:
Supper with JooJi (EH I MENTION YOU AGAIN! free meal again? hurhur), Zhenyang, Teresa and Shuling at UTR. No prizes for guessing that I lost my way there by making wrong turns.
Ok, not really supper for me since I only drank(thank you jooji for the drink! EH SECOND MENTION! ONE MORE MEAL!).. but it was nice to meet up with them again after so long. Pity so many others couldn't make it.
And I gave them all a bad scare. hahaha! Lesson learnt : don't ever let too many of yr passengers speak at the same time. And don't let yr direction-giver's volume be too loud. HAHA!
Ok good night!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:43 AM
Liberated!
Today, I received a call from an old friend who was on her way to register for school in SIM.
So the ironic thing here, is that I remember her being the one firm and robust about her choice never to enter a university, and take the lead in the working industry with a business diploma.
You see, the thing here really isn't about which school she enrols herself into. It's about us humans, how predictable we really are, and how much of trend-followers we are.
How many times have you felt frustrated about school? How many times do you remember yourself saying you wish you didn't have to study anymore? How many times do you remember yourself wishing you could just stop doing anything and everything all at one time? How many times?
But have you?
Guess not. At least, not if you belong to the standard-routiners.
We grew up in the standard routine, proceeding on from one level of education to another, and it seemed like a safe and easy way out.
Apparently, what happened to my friend, was that her determination and ego lost to social norms. And her claim that a diploma will take her faster and a higher position compared to fellow friends studying for a degree, fell weak.
So is it true that all of us are just slaves of the long educational chain, and do not have guts to break free from conventions?
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I was on board the bus with Bish today and I was eavesdropping on this group of students' conversations.
GuyA asked Girl : do you think you're hot, or is your friend hotter?
GuyB answered before Girl could even say anything : this question is useless. it's like comparing one football.. with another football. Completely useless!
hahahaha. zomg they're the bomb man. LOL.
Yeap anyway, today, we're finally liberated from Paula v Car Covers Pty Ltd and Sue v Julie. Therefore... Bish and I decided to take ourselves down town for a short while before catching up on our sleep. hahaha. She got her dad's present (omg 65$!!), and I got my *ahem* BAG! LOL. yeyyyy. =)
Pictures!
This is Bishirich, or better known as the lousy piece of pork lard.
She has red lips.
Oh, and green ones too! (MONSTER)
And this is her bag, soggy. =)
When I'm with her, I am always busy looking for the emergency exit so I can run away fast.
She has red lips.Oh, and green ones too! (MONSTER)And this is her bag, soggy. =)When I'm with her, I am always busy looking for the emergency exit so I can run away fast.Cookies and cream, Regi @10:16 PM
Fatal blow
If you are..
1. constantly hugging your textbook/notes
2. Even dreaming about studying
3. Sleeping less than 2 hours a night because you're plagued by work.
4. always stoning (super easily)
5. constantly talking nonsense
6. coughing out new, stupid terms for everything (including a movie title for your assignment)
then you've probably contracted a fatal disease known as Claustroacadamicalphobia.
Claustrophobia subsection number 1:
Claustrolawphobia
-Down with all the above symptoms in the Law context.
Claustrophobia subsection number 2:
Claustromarketingphobia
-Down with all the above symptoms in the Marketing context.
Claustrophobia subsection number 3:
Claustro_________phobia
-Down with all the above symptoms in the _________ context.
Alright. Let me see. Check, check, check, check, check... CHECK!
OMG it's confirmed. I've contracted the fatal disease Claustroacadamicalphobia!!
The cure only comes in once every semester. zomg. I'm dying soon. Last words anyone?
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:21 AM
Sing me a Melody
Alright, short post before I shoot back to Law assignment (which is due tomorrow, sadly).
Special thanks to (in order of arrival time! hehe)
- Huiyi & Jiale (and thank-you for the purchase too!)
-Binghong (thank-you for the 2 bottles of Sprite! so considerate. haha) & Fadong & Jun An
-Baby! (muaaaaaaaahhhhh!)
-Natalie and bf (whaaaa made a trip down to see us leh!!! )
-Ru (even though it was just to see me pack! haha)
-Shu and Jocelyn (thank-you for advertising Le Little to your friends and thank-you for their purchases!)
Ahhhh and super special thank you to Bishirich & Tracy for helping me sell Freedom, and your oh-very-very-sweet mummy for the hotdog bread and drink!
Well, the flea was quite a flop actually. haha. But it wasn't the organiser's fault nobody knew there was a bazaar going on in Balcony Bar. It was really Balcony Bar's fault. =( The irresponsible management which cost us our precious customers ( =money rolling in).
Thank you very much. =(
Alright, time for Law!!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:08 PM
Dream a little dream of me
I'm at a temporary loss of words cuz I'm really sleepy. And I can't seem to piece my gratefulness, my happiness and my love apt enough.
So, here's more than what I have to say: Thank you, love. For accompanying me throughout tonight, and albeit feeling sleepy and tired, you helped me complete stuff.
And so..
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:49 AM
Christina Aguilera - Hurt
Sometimes you laugh and feel easy.
And so, you say, you're happy. And life's good.
But you get affected so easily.
Even only with emo songs and mtvs.
So then again, you start to wonder,
how do you know if you're really happy?
Or is there something right inside you that's making you uneasy, but you're trying your best to hide it away from everyone, including yourself?
Cookies and cream, Regi @5:20 PM
And then you realised you cannot breathe
I WANT A BREAK BADLY!!!
I want to stop doing projects, I want to stop worrying about the flea market which isn't even confirmed anymore, I want to stop cooping myself up at home deprived from fun, I want to stop losing sleep because I'm always worried over something.
I WANT A BREAK!!!
I NEED A BREAK!!!
So yea, the flea market's not confirmed anymore.
May maggots grow and their chairs/tables rot! The Balcony Bar CEO decided all of a sudden that he/she doesn't want the event anymore and as such, everything's left uncertain already. So the organiser can't confirm because the management doesn't want to confirm. WHAT THE BLOODY HELL? I spent so much money on the materials already ok you asshole!!!!
Condemn Balcony-irresponsible-Bar!!
And thanks to this, my schedule's warped.
I don't know if I can take my time to do my Law assignment, or am I supposed to rush through it. I hate such uncertainties. It makes me frantic and uneasy. Gahhhhh.
But thank goodness marketing project's pushed to 2April. Thank Heavens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok la enough of that ranting.
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The mental radio hasn't stopped since that last time I talked about it. Oh gosh I cannot stand it. I keep singing Littlest Things 24/7.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:46 PM
may the skies fall down on me
My gosh. You have no idea how bushed I am right now. I'm so goddamned drained!!!
I spent the entire day on just one law question. Gosh can you imagine? Bish and I were already debating on the question since last night. And today, we were still debating and couldn't decide on how to answer. And when we finally thought we found the answer.. Lester's guidelines showed us otherwise. Therefore... I had to delete delete delete and redo my essay. haha.
So I spent the day with Deb at tpy, both battling a tough challenge. Right now, I'm so tired, I can't really think straight. And I'm not even understanding and answering Bish properly. haha. I've even been typing this paragraph for the past half an hour not even sure if it's making sense at all.
So alright. give up. Time to sleep!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:44 AM
Why oh why can't I.....
Now, now, should I be on my guard, and be wary?
Or should I just. . . be happy with what I've got?
But there's no denial that I'm afraid.
Afraid that what I've got, isn't really what I think it is.
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I have a love-hate relationship for the law assignment.
It's interesting, yet a tad too tricky.
Bahh.
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I've actually been considering for quite some time, to shift over to LiveJournal for good and set all entries to Friends only. But the moment I think about the troublesome templates. . . I banish the thought. hurhur.
Oh right.
Why are sales so slow?!
Nobody supporting me aye?!?!
http://le-littleshop.blogspot.com , don't forget okay! heheh
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:39 AM
People never stay.
It's my fault for believing in human nature.
Because I've always believed that there's a gold in everyone, and that if I treat people genuinely, people will treat me the same too.
And I was wrong to stay fixed on the same spot, thinking that everyone else would as well.
I blocked away the reception for change, I stopped accepting the fact that I'm still meeting new friends concurrently. I no longer socialised, I was no longer eager about changes.
I believed in retaining my old friends. I believed in the larger importance of maintaining old friendships rather than making new, and unstable ones. I believed that everyone'd feel the same way too.
Well, that's until today.
Today, I was slapped right in the face, and forced to face up with it.
Baby said something today.
"I don't think you have many friends. I don't think any of your friends are real."
Well, that's actually true, to a certain extent. It's pretty much what I always thought about, but never dared to face up to.
Most, if not all, of my friends aren't real.
At least, not anymore.
Well, I guess I'm really not fun enough for any one of them. Not that I aim to please all of them. So let's just limit my scope to a few of them. Perhaps I'm not fun enough, not pretty enough, not clever enough, and so, explains their hypocritical patronises about being best or good friends, and endless patronises about catching up.
Maybe I should really stop being nice. Stop driving everyone home after every date, making sure every single one of them gets home before I get home way after midnight. Stop clowning and listening to their woes. Stop making free time for them. Stop dating them out. And spend all the rest of my substantial time with me, myself, and my future.
Friendships are boguses.
Don't ever tell me anything about Friends Forever because I might just snap the hell out of you.
" 'Bestfriends' are for publicity.", he said.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:48 PM
Le Little Shop
HELLO ALL YOU LOYAL SUPPORTERS!
Sorry to keep you waiting for so long!
Le Little Shop is back, and revamped!
For convenience sake, we've relocated to:http://le-littleshop.blogspot.com !
Please continue to support us and here're two pieces of good news!
1. Le Little Shop has updated!
Check our new items out at http://le-littleshop.blogspot.com !
2. Le Little Shop is having a second collaboration with Luvishbits, and doing up a stall at the flea market held in The Balcony Bar (yes, you heard it right!) on the 25th of March 2007(Sunday), from 11am right up to 6pm.
So be there or be square!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:01 AM
Don't add more pain
I will try once, twice and thrice.
I will try to moisturise not just your hostility, but the arm's length between us which you created.
But after the third try, I won't say anymore tries.
Disappointments there were, but disappointments there won't be, after the third time.
I will never, never want to look back again after the third try.
And they say, never say never.
But there's a loophole. You can say "never, never" , if you mean it enough to say it twice.
And just this once, I'll cheat, and start counting only from now.
And that's one try down.
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Anyway I've been meaning to type this down somewhere ever since the Trojan virus saga back in J1, where my email account (very unfortunately) got hacked by some asshole.
"Hijacking blogsites, websites, and email accounts is considered an offence under the Computer Misuse Act. Anyone found guilty faces up to three years' jail and/or a fine of up to $10000."
There you go. I can finally throw away the slip of paper which I copied this onto two years ago.
So in case the (bloody) hacker belongs in my social circle, and happens to be reading my blog, there you have it.
Try me. And I'll try the Singapore legal force too.
Ahhhhhhhhhh the constant tauntings of Management Accounts.. of Commercial Law.. of Marketing Principles..
I need instant relief...
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:58 PM
it's 2.07am now
What would you do if you see a scrawny looking Indian lying on the grass motionless?
Would you think he's dead or asleep?
And what would you do?
Well, I sat rooted in the car seat, not having the slightest ounce of courage to move off. Well because one, if he's dead, it'd be very bad if I just drive off right? But if he's really dead, I'd be scared stiff. Two, if he's not dead, is he asleep or did he faint?
And the only way to find out, is to approach him. But due to my cowardly nature, I chose to ring dad up and got him to come downstairs to my rescue. So turns out he was a drunkard (oh drunkards of the world unite) and fell asleep. -_-
So Stella said she laughed like mad because of my stupidity and Mummy rang to laugh at me too.
=(
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I just had Korean cup noodles and Gulp with baby, and stole a hug.
But it's not enough!
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I like being such good friends with Yisheng. =)
And now he wants me to start writing poems with him. HAH!
Cookies and cream, Regi @2:00 AM
Eutopia
There's this nagging desire to go out, speed along the highway, enjoy as the breeze brushes pass me, and watch as the damned cars around me zoom past.
There's this nagging urge to tear away from school committments, and all the useless burdens, stroll along the horizon, watch the fading silhouettes of happy people and listen to their trouble-free laughters.
I want to lay freely on the sand, bask in the midnight moonlight, sing along to light music, and fall asleep in nature's embrace.
I want to break away from the responsibilities a daughter and a student has to meet up to for just one day. I want to feel my shoulders lighten and my hair let loose.
I want to enjoy the benefit of not worrying about anything in particular. Worrying not about revenge, karma, bad grades, tiffs, tickings and pimples.
I want, I want to enter Eutopia.
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:11 PM
Optimism
Life's worth living because,
-I have a bestfriend like Yisheng, who'd get worried about me driving home alone in the night after sending everyone back, and offers to ride with me and walk home himself.
-I have good pals like Bishan who'd constantly remind me to take care of the bump in my head (and you better take care of the dinosaur in your tummy!)
-I have good pals like Jiewan who'd always be one of the firsts to jump up to me (virtually) and ask me about my well being.
-I have very considerate good buddies like Li and Ru who'd offer to start queuing at New York New York one hour early so I didn't have to do it myself.
-I have a fun friend like Nat who'd always look out for me for shopping (!!).
-I have a sweetheart friend like Debbie who'd always console/make me feel better no matter what happens.
-I have a nice daddy who'd never complain about fetching me anywhere.
-I have a nice mummy who'd make my life so comfortable and smooth, and even pays for my 65$ Eriko DVD, and buys me a 79.90$ jacket.
And last but not the least important,
I have a darling who'd always take care of me, look out for me in the nittiest grittests, keep me warm, and never lets me go hungry.
So, life is still good albeit the little bumpers.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:04 PM
It's saddening
When I had some form of contact with you,
it suddenly struck me, and I began to wonder.
What was it that you claimed to treasure so much?
What was it that you claimed to have lost?
Was it really the friendship? Or was it just some form of company?
Had I left things at where they were, would you be still complaining so much?
Or was it really just the possession of company you needed?
Because if it was really friendship you treasured,
why is it that.. I never felt so?
If it was really friendship you treasured,
why the hostility now?
What am I to do, to be reasonable and nice in your eyes?
Tell me.
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:01 PM
1,2,3,4,5,6,7
And I saw 7 Sylphys in total today.
Cherry right on top of the cake.
SWEET.
Pun intended.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:47 PM
I feel stupid
I experienced a total yin-yang mix today.
Well, more of the yin (or whichever's worse).
But it's weird why my day turned out that bad considering I was a good sister and daughter today. I woke up early to have breakfast with mum and drove her to work, came home, fetched sister and friend to school. Came back, rested. Went to look for baby for lunch, took him home to get some documents for work, drove to school.
So basically, I had all the essence of a contributing family member, helpful and loving girlfriend, and a dutiful student.
And yet, bad things had to befall upon me. =(
I wanted to be a good girl again and fetch mummy home from work before my test begun.
And that was when it happened.
I opened the car door, was about to get in, then some guy, who was in a rush, rushed pass my car and accidentally knocked my car door.
The car door slammed my right side head and pushed me towards the car, and my head got slammed between the car door and car. It hurt so bad I didn't have time to turn and see who he was. And for a minute, I was literally in a daze and blackout.
It was so scary! I kept having giddy spells after that and trust me, it was no joke.
So thank heavens mummy changed her mind about getting me to fetch her (I didn't tell her what happened..) and so I went back to school. I was so giddy, I couldn't even drive properly.
Yea, no kidding.
I was at the lousiest state for the test earlier. Cramps and headaches. ahhhh.
Oh but Bishan brought me 2 slices of chocolate bread today!! =)
Thank God baby came to school and drove the car for me. We had bar chor mee for dinner!
You know,
I love you. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:06 PM
Eriko Imai
If you asked me, what makes me like Eriko so much, I'd tell you without a doubt, I like her smile.
Her smile makes me feel happy. That's what I never told anyone about. It's not something that's easy to explain, and something that's not easy for others to comprehend. People'll probably retort me by saying I'm stupid or senseless.
There isn't a concrete reason to why I like listening to her songs.
In true fact, I listen to BoA more often than listening to Eriko.
However, it's not about how often I listen to her songs, or whether I can sing every one of her songs that makes me a fan.
In fact, I just ridiculed myself by remembering her birth year wrongly.
It's about me admiring her work, and admiring her courage to face up to things I won't ever face up to on my own. But I don't explain this to anyone.
I didn't explain this to you, baby.
I didn't tell you I admired her courage for giving birth to her son albeit all odds. I didn't tell you I admired her bubbly character.
People idolise because somewhere somehow, in the idol, they see what they wish they could be, but will never be.
There are many unnamed difficulties I have in me, that I won't ever speak of to anyone.
Which is what stops me from getting what I want.
Which is what makes me idolise.
Don't ask me why I chose Eriko Imai out of the billions of other better singers.
People have differing likes, and dislikes.
People have different weightage of things, different views on everything.
So respect me, respect my choice.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:44 AM
SUNNY DAYS
Guess what guess what guess what?
I can finally lay my hands on Elly's Live DVD!!
Guess how guess how guess how?
I managed to contact the in-charge of her local fansite, who recently just posted a thread saying she managed to pre-order her dvd, who is freaking friendly and helpful and offered to help me order the DVD!
However.. I don't get the personal note handwritten by Eriko cuz mine's not pre-ordered, plus, it's gonna cost me 65$.
I think baby's gonna nag at me for spending so much on an idol, and call me a little too over....
BUT I'M HAPPY NOW!
=)
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:19 PM
mental radio
There's this one particular song that's been going in my head for the past few days.
Don't ask me why this song, I've no idea why too!
But well, it's not a bad thing that it keeps repeating. It's a nice song.
Heh.
So here goes.
Lilly Allen - Littlest Things
Sometimes I find myself sittin` back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin`
And I remember when you started callin` me your miss`s
All the play fightin`, all the flirtatious disses
I`d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dont why I trusted you
but I knew that I could
We`d spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
Chorus
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can`t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on,
Tell me Is this the end?
Drinkin` tea in bed
Watching DVD`s
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we`d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down,
you made that face you do no one in the world that could replace you
Chorus
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can`t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things remind me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on,
Tell me
Is this the end?
Waaaa damn nice cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @4:08 PM
Disclaimer
I cannot emphasise enough how much I loathe (for the lack of stronger hate words) it when people tell me 'confirm later'.
I really feel like replying things like 'CONFIRM NOW OR JUST SAY YOU CAN'T COME'.
Very exasperating. Well, I didn't get this hate out of nowhere.
I get it because out of all the times people tell me that, half the time( this is an understatement) they don't confirm later. Mostly, they either forget about confirming with me, or they are never confirmed about it even on the day itself.
And what irks me even more, is even when I take the initiative to confirm with them, they don't even respond.
Wa thanks man.
Out of 10 of these incidents, 8 belong to the same few people.
I don't know why I'm always stuck with people who got such weird penchants seriously.
Maybe it's my ill fate. Ya, blame it on my own ill fate.
So the next time I refuse to follow up with anybody's so-called promised confirmation, don't blame me anymore okay.
Ok if you didn't understand a single shit I said, here's the summary.
IF YOU'RE SO BUSY, SAY LA. DON'T TELL ME CONFIRM LATER! IT'S EITHER YOU GIVE ME A FREE DAY AND WE STAMP IT OUR DATE, OR WE DON'T MEET ON THAT PARTICULAR DAY OK?
grrrrrrrrr. I don't know how long it will take for the entire world to comprehend this easy little fact.
Cookies and cream, Regi @3:55 PM
I love Debbie =)
I love pouring troubles to Debbie because she always listens, and at the end of the day, helps me get back on my feet. =) She's always so bubbly so I'm never upset when I'm with her, and I can never find the heart to ever get upset at her.
And talking to her earlier made me a tad less frustrated.
I love Debbie!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:17 AM
Shit happens
I'm not in a good mood right now.
Reason being, today's a pretty shit up day.
I'm pretty darn sure we screwed up today's interview with Houseproud's GM.
Firstly, we were late (no Deb, not your fault, we got lost in Ubi).
Secondly, our group (Kston Debbie Me) very obviously displayed a weak knowledge of our own fucking project. Halfway through the interview, Kston can still ask me, are we doing on Precious Moments or Precious Thots. I swear I almost fainted on the spot.
It was as if we never did any preparation work for our own project and was only there to get ready-made information churned out.
I don't know, but I have a very bad feeling about this marketing project.
And honestly, I am way too slack for my own good this semester.
I dont' think I'll have anyone to blame, but myself, if I were to flunk any module this time round.
Fuuuuccckkk ttthhhheeeee wwwoooooorrrrrllllllldddddddddddd.
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I really hate to deal with people who think that I'm forever there , forever ok with them acting as if I really like planning all the dates, forever ok with them acting as if I really want them there so much. Perhaps they should know, sometimes somethings I do, I do it out of moral obligations, and not because I really want to.
If I had a choice, I would really not do it.
And.
I hate being so slack, so lazy and so useless.
My school schedule's so free, and I have no idea why am I still constantly missing lessons. I should really give myself a hard punch. My mum paid so much to put me into this asshole institution and I'm wasting her money like that. I don't care if I'm gonna be alone in lessons next time, I'll just go.
I can't waste my life like this. I don't want to regret in future. I don't want to laze my life away and ruin my chance of a good degree, and the chance to further my degree.
I shall not procrastinate so much anymore.
Why waste my time at home sleeping/surfing/lazing when I can actually stop wasting my mother's hard earned money?
Punch myself upside down.
Also.
I'm upset about something else. But I reckon it's way too sensitive to be posted up online here.
Never mind, it's okay. I poured it out to baby already anyway.
At least I'm not bottling it up.
Fuck it man. I am so full of frustration and irritation right now, I can just blabber on forever.
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:51 PM
Puto
The trusty ol' E730 has one of the best Samsung cameras ever. Cover screen camera is always the best. Ha! Pity my E900 can't do that. tsk.Ahhh and for the reason why I'm blogging.. I forgot!
Ahh just as well. Here's one of my very favourite cars - the Nissan Sylphy.
How pretty ain't it? Baby and I love it, and are always on the look out for it. Especially Sylphys with the purplish silver shine. Sweet.
But just the other day, I saw 3 Sylphys in just half an hour, and boy am I devastated.
Because on the average, I see a maximum of 2 Sylphys in a day.
Share my pain now?
On top of it's majestically attractive exterior, I heard from baby that it's the world's only car that is capable of remembering different driver's specific likes and specifications. So depending on who's driving the car that very day, the car automatically adjusts to the driver's likings - that is assuming only two drivers use the car (two sets of car keys both implanted with a card memory!!).
Sweeeet.
But then again..
This is better! BMW 6 series!
*edit
Now I think the BMW M3 Cabriolet's nicer. =x
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:00 AM
Le Amour
You know I love you when you're loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
I'm not ashamed,
I don't care who sees
Us hugging & kissing our love exhibition all
We'll rendezvous out on the fire escape
I'd like to set off an alarm today
The love emergency don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
I urgently need you
Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't
The cycle of me being a boring ass has begun.
All work, and I haven't had a play.. (well, technically speaking).
But food will most definitely not be spared off my boring schedule.
Baby and I had a good dinner last night.. although I would have sued the stall holder because even with my limited knowledge on commercial law, I know I'd win the case. haha.
That aside, I wish I was better in studies. Then I'd make it to Law, and study justice and order.
All that CL reading up's making me regretful and upset. =(
A bit more on the randoms, and I'll head off to rest.
-I don't like men during andropause period.
-I don't like how my dad thinks.
-I seem to be pretty lack of sleep today although I slept quite a fair bit last night.
-I cook pretty well, according to my cousin=)
-I think my little cousin's a very sensible and obedient girl, albeit her studies are in a mess.
-I hate having to disappoint.. but I disappointed HY TC and JL. =(
-Will be interviewing Houseproud PL's general manager of sales and marketing tomorrow. =x
-I'd like to fast forward time to April (all tests, projects and flea market would be over).
-I dunno why didn't I think properly before committing to the flea market.
-LE SIGH.
Cookies and cream, Regi @9:34 PM
Le Sigh
Right now I feel like typing like a problematic teen who falls short of punctuations and emotions, uses weak English and reports every single happening in the day.
So I shall begin.
I woke up late for class today so I gave Marketing class a miss. No biggie anyway since half the class was either late or didn't attend or left halfway. So I went there in time to sign mine and Bish's attendance and attended project meeting which was for once very fruitful.
Had lunch thereafter with Natalie Kston and Lester and we story-timed for very long while Nat waited for her bf to come pick her up and it was only then that I realised Lester and I live very near. Bumped into Elaine in the canteen finally and HELLO BABE WE FINALLY MET AGAIN!
Then I went home to waste my life away and went to pick baby up from work ^_^ very sweet hor. We had dinner in cineleisure shopped in Heeren and Far East then drove to Tanjong Pagar Park (or something like that) and went home.
I'm sorry baby I was a bad egg today. :(
My eyes are rotting because they eye circles won't go away considering I don't sleep early and don't rest enough so they're itching me every now and then and hurting me hell a lot I feel like poking myself in the eye.
Ok now I feel sleepy.
Anyway I bought a bag and a pair of shorts today, so that's good.
^_^
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:07 AM
Tragic
I met up with Jiewan today!
And blew quite a bit on Ruth's present.. but never mind! It's her 21st anyway! =)
Then, we had dinner at New York New York. . which was pretty good I'd say! haha.
We had this little chocolate fondue at only $15.90, compared to Haagen Dasz's $30 odd. haha.
And it was rather good, other than the fact that they had marshmallows, which I don't really like. So I made Jiewan finish them all! hahaha.
Chen laoshi very nice! She cabbed me home today. hahaha. =))
So anyway, getting on to the real reason why I'm blogging right now. It's actually quite senseless to be blogging at this hour, considering I have hideous eye bags (which, by the way, scared my dear chen lao shi) and should be in bed recuperating. And plus, there's marketing class in the morning tomorrow.
It was a tragic incident, really.
I was about to fall asleep.. and suddenly, I had to start sneezing for more than ten times in a row. As such, I'm energized and hungry now. Don't ask me why I'm hungry, I'm always hungry after massive sneezing.
I can't get rid of my hideous eyebags at this rate!! Gosh.
I wonder how am I gonna wake up in time for class tomorrow..
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:56 AM
SWEEEEEEET!
YEYYYYYYYY baby's buying me Elly's Neverland~ album!!!!!
=)
=)
=)
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:53 PM
Heart drop onto the ground
I am very very very upset.
I do not understand a single fucking Japanese, I don't live in Japan (or for that, anywhere near Shibuya).
As such, I cannot/don't know how to purchase Elly's Soar DVD, Live gig tickets, and whatever fucking thing she has, that isn't for sale in God-forsaken Singapore.
Oh damnit damnit damnit.
Why can't I just hop on a plane on April 7, catch the gig, grab the DVD/CD/photoalbum, and come back immediately (after shaking her hand and throwing her a big hug) ?
Why can't I?
=(
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:28 PM
My prized possession
Love is easy.
All you have to do, is love genuinely, and everything falls into place neatly.
But, eternal flame?
=(
*
For the next couple of weeks/2mths, I'll devote myself to all work and no play. So I'll temporarily bid goodbye to my social life (not that I have much to speak of, but.. I'll just stop most of it anyway) and step into what I've been procrastinating for far too long.
Projects, assignments, faithfully attending lectures, tests, upcoming exams, my sidelines.
And for the benefit of all who read, I'll be doing a flea market soon again. =) 25March (Li! I know it's your birthday! haha)
It'll be held at the Balcony Bar in Heerens. Doing it with Bishan and Natalie. So this time round, I better double up considering the very tight amount of items I have on hand.
And, Le Little Shop is midway through revamp, watch the space!
In addition, www.thy-closet.blogspot.com just updated today. Go support me if you can! =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:52 PM
The closet I ever got.
Baby's back! =)))))
Anyway, I finally picked my ass up to settle a transaction for thy-closet. heh. Been dragging it far too long.. oh well! haha.
And by the way, I can't wait to get started on Le Little Shop. =) I'm so about to burst! hahaha.
STAY TUNED OKAY!!
So today was a really good day, 'cept if you do not include the incident I almost got into a freaking car accident.
I was only a second away from a tragic car accident (or so I feel)!
Stupid Honda Jazz I should have taken down its car plate number and filed a complain against that bugger. Everybody who knows me knows I keep my signal turned on for a while before I change lanes, and as such, my signal was turned on for a while, so whole world should know I'm about to cut lanes anytime.
And, I checked, double checked, before I even attempted to change lanes. BUT!!!
That stupid bugger had to play a freaking trick on me. =(
A second before I swerved into the first lane, there was this super loud (my music was blasting and I still could hear his fucking loud engine lehhhh) vrrrrrooooooooommmmmmm that caught me stunned and hurriedly swerved back into my lane. KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!?!
That stupid Jazz vroomed all the way from THIRD LANE PASS SECOND, PASS FIRST, and into the exit! WHAT THE FUCK LEH!!! Damnit made me so scared. I swear if I hadn't swerved back in time, he'd have crashed into me. And, judging from his speed, I bet I'd have been crushed into pieces.
That asshole. He was so fast I didn't even have time to see his car plate number. pfffffft.
So this goes to show, even though the driver pays 100% attention to proper rules and procedures, it could all fall prey to a non-abiding law driver.
ASSHOLE!!! =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:00 AM
Carousel
"Boo are you watching the moon?If you're then I'm watching the same moon as you now :)"
"... Really miss you, walk ard also can imagine you bside me :( "
"hello boo how I wish you were here to share with me everythingnow. it would be so much fun and you could shop like crazy, eat till your fil and then night activities :) room here is more than i can ask for :) and the prelude would be a 6 dollars massage. :) i wonder what're u doing now? Online chatting?"
"Boo boo now it's my turn to miss ya :( having dinner now.
What are you doing? Have you been good? :) one more day to go!"
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:15 AM
Going down the abyss
Slowly, but surely, you're dropping off the chart.
And even now, calling you what I used to always refer you as, seem so difficult.
I'm reluctant and unwilling.
I'm selfish, so I don't like this lack of exclusiveness.
*
Baby and I were viewing the very same moon at the very same time, at two different and very apart places. =)
We're gonna spend many nights together.
<3
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:37 PM
because 16 held such better times
So due to communication break down (really, I really mean communication breakdown), Bish and I didn't shop today!!!! And I spent my day at home ripping cds into the laptop. hurhur. Oh my god I want to buy Elly's DVD, photobook, albums, upcoming live gig tickets. Booooooooo. =(
And dinner with YS tonight not on as well.
But well, I did Le Littles yesterday!! Bishan said this series very nice lehhhhh. hahaha. Stay tuned! Le Little Shop revamping! =)
Baby's coming home tomorrow!! Wheeheeheeeeeee. I get to claim overdue hugs and kisses. =) Oh and presents. HAHA!!
I can't wait!!
AND THERE'S SHOPPING WITH BISH ON TUES, SHOPPING WITH JW ON THURS, CELEBRATION ON 12TH, BUTTER FEAST ON 16TH tooooo.
ooh yea ooh yea. =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:41 PM
Because pictures show love
So here're the pictures of the survivor pack Debbie and Bishan gave me previously. =)
VERY SWEET RIGHT!!My favourites =)
My eyebags look disgustingly obvious.. ALL MARKETING TEST'S FAULT LA!
My eyebags look disgustingly obvious.. ALL MARKETING TEST'S FAULT LA!
Cookies and cream, Regi @8:36 PM
With Love
Just half an hour ago, I was about to blow up in infuriation.
I was upset, I was angry, I was in doubt.
I didn't understand what went wrong. Was it my err? Was it because I was brought up to be a brat? Was it because I always made free time, made it a must that I do not leave requests hanging till the very last minutes, but people don't behave likewise? Was it because everyone else is forever fucking too busy- that they can never give me a definite answer, and only to tell me at the last minute, cancelled? Was it because I always took their 'I'll confirm with you later!' as an agreement? Was it because they always forget to get back to me like they promised, that I have to constantly ask for their reply like I really am desperate?
Or, is it because, I'm just too inconsiderate/unsympathetic/sensitive (yet again) ?
I don't know what odd fate I possess. I'm always stuck with people like that. People with a weird penchant of leaving every-fucking-thing to the absolute last minute, and then cancelling it at the last minute because they decided to go ahead with OTHER priorities. Oh yea, whatever.
Because I've decided. The next person that tells me 'I'll confirm with you later!' or anything close to that, fuck off okay.
If you are really keen on the meet up, it'll show more obviously.
But of course, I absolutely understand it when family/lessons get into the way. I'm definitely not referring to being ditched due to reasons like that luuuhhhhhh.
And then, half an hour later (now, that is), I'm about to cry.
But that's not because I'm sad, depressed or what not.
Joy-induced, rather. =)
I wish I could really join you baby, eat till my fill with you, shop till we drop, the 6$ prelude massage, hug you till we wake up in the morning and greet you with a smacking kiss.
Hurry come back dear! I've got so much to say to you, so much I wanna share with you, and so much I wanna pour out to you.
But it's okay! It's just another day more!
And, " I be the first you see when I return".
It's gonna be sweet dreams tonight, baby!
Cookies and cream, Regi @1:31 AM
Upsetting.
Today, long, tiring, and upsetting.
Baby's overseas. Test today. Carried rock-heavy bag to Chinatown. Realised.
So let's just put it this way, today's pretty much a shitty day.
More aptly, fucked up day.
But I still love Bishirich because she accompanied me today, and made me laugh because she's (as usual,) always being stupid. =)
Somehow, I guess it's the difference in us, our lifestyles and everything else, that enabled our friendship. But it's also that, that's causing the gradual loss of our friendship too.
Perhaps you should understand.. that I'm not like them. I don't have many others that'll make me feel better. I don't have as much, to understand your plight.
But I guess, this is all unavoidable, and one day, we'll still have to face up to it again.
The scariest thing to co-exist in a friendship, is silent competition of any sort. Any sort at all.
=(
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Anyway, Ys very smart!!! He actually scored AACB3 this exams! And for that, I get a free treat! (even though I did nothing at all. haha!) But I'm reeeally happy for him. Pat on your back, budd!!!!!
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I miss baby already. =(
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:23 PM
Midnight pamper
It was 3.18am.
All's silent and dark.
I sought solace with my dreams, away, far far away from marketing principles.
And then, the phone rang.
He was still awake.
He was accompanying me through my midnight rush.
I was too sleepy to talk, but I went back to sleep with a smile.
Simple, it's all about being loved.
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:28 PM
All I have
I don't possess strong language, nor do I speak different fluent tongues.
But I have sufficient words that would allow me to express my emotions and thoughts fine enough.
I can't illustrate pictureseque sceneries, neither can I sing a song most effectively. What I can do, is write and speak. And maybe a little of action giving.
Words, are one of the most powerful gift of life.
Even though I can hardly write compositions now, or even confidently piece a full speech in mandarin, times like these, I find it most apt for me to write in my mother tongue.
It's wonderous how much words can do.
=)
Symbols too!
Cookies and cream, Regi @12:29 AM
Ohana
His name is Matong.
He turns into a Snickers bar when he's on hibernate mode.
This is him with his Daddy.
And Mummy!
(singing) We are family!
That's my dad and my boyfriend, discussing about cars and good deals. =)
And.. this is my favourite picture of the day.
Oh, by the way. Whenever I say Bishan is a greedy pig/lazy bum, I'm not kidding. I got proof!
And she was supposed to be studying..
(pst: she was scrutinizing a FOOD pamphlet. yea. )
Oh yea! Tip for all my readers!
Always leave your bluetooth on!! Today, baby lost his phone in the Nissan showroom. Just when we thought all hope's lost, I remembered, he always has his bluetooth turned on. So, I decided to search for device using mine, and viola! We found his phone!! (just so you know, it was in a basement, so no reception, we couldn't call to locate the phone..)
So bottomline, keep all your bluetooth turned on if you have one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @10:49 PM
Being a girl is tough
The Bottom Line
Don't be afraid of being called 'cheap.' Thrift is a virtue. Save your money.
In Detail
When it comes to your finances, you cannot let your reputation come before your bank account. If you are afraid of being called 'cheap,' you need to get over it. The people who toss those types of terms around are the same people who are deep in debt, so what do they know about money matters? Being thriftier will help you increase your cash flow and decrease your stress level, so create a tighter budget and ignore what people say about your spending habits.
So... I guess this is a sign. Better start getting tight on myself and quit thinking I've lots of cash to spare for my endless shopping sprees.
BUT HOW?!?!?! I'm forever stuck on the mentality that 'I don't want to go home empty handed'. And come this Tuesday, I'll be blowing quite a sum in Chinatown for the revamped LeLittleShop. (footnote : Le Little Shop is revamping. stay tuned!)
=( Shopping's been so fun and spiritually engaging.
I'm always a tad more happy whenever I come home with a bag/bags of new stuff. Although it hurts on my pockets, it satisfies my errrr... soul.
Blarghh but I know this gotta end.. Else I'd be a pauper in no time, with no money for business-making, no money for food and catching up with friends, no money for rainy days, no money for friends' birthdays, no money for baby's birthday in 7mths. Boohoohoo.
I so need to get my ass on being plain and dull Regina, all books and no play.
Saves money anyway. (ohhh it rhymed. )
Shall go to my personal financial planner for help! =)
Cookies and cream, Regi @11:21 PM
Of my Saturday.
Watching the fireworks from afar, gradually driving towards it. Watch it explode right in front of you, red, blue, green, and more. Halt right in the midst of an expressway, enjoy the magnificent view without a care, in embrace.
Sweeeet.
So we gave Chingay parade a miss yesterday! Couldn't really be bothered to hustle with the never ending crowd, and gambling with the delayed train, we gave the parade a miss!
But all for a good cause! I earned myself a red packet from baby's mummy! =)
We caught Letters from Iwo Jima yesterday, and it was a really good watch. All worth the 2hr20mins spent in the uncomfortable theatre. hurhur. Remember, VivoCity theatre 3 has lousy seats!! Far too upright for enjoyment. tsk.
It seemed more like a continuation, or rather, second point of view from Flags of our Fathers. Albeit illustrated in a more.. balanced view.
I like!
And OP was having mega sale, so we bought stuff each and went out of the store very very pleased!
Oh by the way, go to www.buildabear.com.sg!! We went into this Build-A-Bear Workshop at Harbourfront yesterday, and I was so amused by it! They had really cute clothes, SUNGLASSES, shoes, even boxers! for teddy bears. haha! And they had like a whole row of teddy bear 'skins' for you to choose and they'll stuff them with cotton once you picked it. Very cute!!! How amazing to actually shop through all their stuff. Their bags are so cute!! I'll have my own rabbit one day!! The rabbit skin alone that I eyed on was already $34.90. =( Meaning to say, on top of all the accessories and clothes, I've to pay $34.90 for the teddy itself. 50$ wouldn't be sufficient for me to bring home a teddy I'm very satisfied with. Boohoo.
But oh well, I've a bear already. BOO!
B to the power of 5 S.
BBBBBS.
Off to pack my room!!!
Cookies and cream, Regi @